My spirit born into this physical life, to experience all emotions to live and learn how to love. It has not been easy for this fish out of water, to live this physical earthly life, programmed from birth to be like everyone else, blessed and burdened with the gifts of spirit, I was the round hole trying to fit the square peg, now I see it was all a waste of time, the peg would never fit I would have fared much better, if I had just been me focussing on my truth and not lived the lie, I was not meant to be like everyone else.
No longer will I hide my darkness behind my light, I will live in my truth and power and accept all that is within me. I am an Angel and a Demon my legacy in this life has been insight, healing, kindness, compassion, hurt, and pain, for the hurt and pain I have caused please forgive me, to those who have caused me hurt and pain, I forgive you all that matters is here within the now. I was sent to this earth to be a blessing to many, through my foolishness I wasted many a year, searching for what I am not, to you Great Spirit I apologise, to the mothers of my children I apologise, to my two sons who I left behind, I never ever stopped loving you and never will, I fought my battles loved and lost.
Realising to seek acceptance from family and peers is the journey of the fool, when acceptance of the gifted self, is the wisdom of the seeking heart and mind, many regrets have chained me down from the past, the deceivers lies slashing at my heart, finding solace in booze and speed did not comfort my heart only to amplify my bitter rage, as the hungry maggot gnawed at my guts. Living life at each end of the spectrum,, giving messages from spirit teaching mediumship, working the door drinking fighting, No longer will I listen to my demons lies, freeing me of the chains of regret, I hear the gentle loving whisper of my angel within, telling me to shine my light for all to see.
Stephen Rowlands 20/12/17
2 thoughts on “Shine My Light”
Oh Stephen. Bless you. Bless you for such a beautiful raw piece of writing from your heart. Bless you for your forgiveness. Bless you for offering forgiveness. Bless you for stepping into who you truly are…. your soul laid bare for people to see. Bless you for shining your light, for illuminating your faults, we all have them but most of all bless you for having the courage to write and publish such a moving piece of writing from your heart xx
Thankyou for your kind words Lesley 💜