God within me God without, how shall I ever be in Doubt. I am the sower and the sown, God’s self unfolding own.
As a Christian Spiritualist, Jesus is the one true example of all I know to be the truth. He was a soul living an earthly life through a physical body, and a material world. He was fully aware of his soul connection to the source, that we have named God. He was also a medium and healer, and when he died his spirit left his body and went into spirit, so what makes Jesus so different to me, or any of us, I believe it is now the time to really change our perception of ourselves. As I have long realised he was the personification of us all, his message was very simple I am you. And we can all develop the same love, compassion, kindness, as Jesus by knowing he came to show the human race who we truly are.
We are souls living and learning through a human experience, this is what I believe he was teaching us, when he said, “I am the way the truth and the life. No one comes to the father except through me” Jesus is an ascended master do we really think that he wanted to be worshipped, with worship it focusses all the goodness and divinity onto him, and makes us blind to our own goodness and divinity, and to his teachings, distracting us from developing his teachings from within, making us the hopeless sinners we are led to believe we are by organised religion. I feel strongly to say he wanted us to listen to him, and learn from him, about the truth of our existence here on mother earth, and to our soul connection to what we have named God, and for his teachings to be passed down through the ages. By doing this the consciousness and vibration of the human race, would have been raised to a much higher level, collectively and individually, this I believe was the purpose of Jesus being here on earth, he was actually trying to save us from ourselves, but through religion we have totally missed the point of the teaching and lessons. Religion is great for souls to come together, to share support and grow together, but sadly it has been corrupted by mans need for power and control.
Jesus had his troubles and temptations here in his short earthy life as we do, yet throughout his life he taught and guided us, how to deal with our problems, this is Jesus man and teacher, he dealt with his problems with love and intuition, at times he did not have the answers so he prayed, he asked for guidance and direction, as we do when we are lost, he was tempted by the devil out in the desert, for strength to resist temptation he prayed, and in doing so he was attuning himself, to the source of his being that we have named God, and in doing so attuning himself to his higher self, in his life story the source was identified as his father, I know the source to be the father and mother of us all depending on your perspective of the source. I really feel strongly to say it is wrong to believe, that Jesus was the son of God, in fact he was our brother, teaching us of our connection to the source throughout his life, to believe Jesus was the son of God, makes him some kind of supernatural being, within our human biological mindset.
When in truth Jesus was exactly the same as us, mind, body, spirit, soul, living an earthly existence to experience, learn, give, and grow. To look on Jesus as a supernatural being, is now very old hat and wrong we have to remember that Jesus, was communicating to people 2000 years ago , so the source through him was communicating to the level of understanding at the time, we now live in a time of science and technology, its about time our understanding of life and spirituality, moved along with the times, but man made religion likes to keep us in our place, so we remain its servants via a man made supernatural being, and making us feel incapable of attaining, what Jesus taught us what is naturally within us.
When Jesus spoke of his fathers house I strongly believe, he was talking of what we believe is heaven, or as I believe the spirit world, the many mansions he spoke of, to me are the many many levels of spirit within the spirit world, nobody knows how many levels there are, as there are many lives and existences we know nothing about, it is a massive universe we live in. Jesus said he would prepare a place for us, I really do not believe Jesus meant as religion tells us, that we have to believe in him or the man made religion that adopted him, to gain a place with him in heaven or the spirit world, the place he would be preparing for us would be defined by, the life we led here on earth by our thoughts and actions, as to the kind of room that would be prepared for us. My house has many mansions means to me, that there is room for all, our thoughts and actions here on earth dictate, whether we land up living eternally in a palace, or a slum, a nice maisonette, a council estate, or suburbia. Our level of spirit is dictated by our soul progression, again by our thoughts and actions here on earth, we can as souls go up and down the levels of spirit, depending on our thoughts and actions, the choice is ours Jesus was guiding us to choose love, kindness, and compassion, over hatred, anger, selfishness , ignorance. We all have the universal gift of freewill, so we should make our choices wisely, freewill is the engine of spirit and soul development, let us make the template for our lives the teachings of Jesus, and all the other ascended masters, because they all brought the same message to us, the truth has one source but many different teachers, depending on our level of understanding.
Jesus life was teaching us the universal way of life, but in doing so he upset the religion of the time, because he was teaching us that we are responsible for our lives, and how we live it and not as a servant to man made religion, and in doing so taking away the power that religion had over the people. He upset the local government which were the romans at that time, by the amount of people that were following Jesus teachings, they feared civil unrest with the possibility of being overthrown.
At this time we see Jesus the man, living life by his freewill and choices, because his teachings were love, I honestly do not believe he realised how much upset, he was causing, he was upsetting religion and government, the two most powerful factions of the time and still are to this day. On his crucifixion Jesus said “father forgive them for they know not what they do” but they knew exactly what they were doing, they were getting rid of a trouble maker, because of the collective ego, they did not want to lose there power, they chose that over change and progression, to a better way of life, yes they were driven by greed. I do not believe Jesus wanted to die that day, as he prayed and asked his father for help to live, religion tells us that Jesus died to save us from sin, again making him supernatural but it was the sin of greed that killed him. We have to take the teachings of universal and unconditional love within, make them our living and speaking truth through the heart, then Jesus death would not have been in vain, whether you believe Jesus existed or not, its a great story that can heal guide and uplift us.
At Christmas time 2019/20I wrote about my optimism for the coming new year 2020, and without a doubt 2020 has been a massive year of change for us all, due to the covid19 pandemic, where many have lost their lives before their time, and many have suffered grief and loss throughout 2020, as a country the economy has suffered due to two national lockdowns, taking the country into recession, as I write this 25/12/20 it appears we are headed for a third national lockdown, which will cause the economy more harm and take the country as a whole into a deeper recession, The government has done its best to support people with the furlough scheme, and also support businesses that have had to close during lockdowns, but many have fallen into hardship losing jobs and livelihoods, placing greater pressure on social welfare and services also charities, the NHS has worked miracles to treat covid19 patients and to treat patients with other health conditions, although there were many NHS services cutback because of the covid19 onslaught, to help keep the NHS afloat whilst doctors and nurses were redeployed to treat covid19 patients.
My heart goes out to all who have passed into spirit due to the covid19 pandemic, and all people who are grieving and suffering financial hardship, and to those people who are suffering mental ill health, the lost lonely and confused the pandemic and lockdowns, have caused harm to peoples mental wellbeing, it is very hard as a nation to find something positive in 2020 due to covid19, I am a key worker as a security officer and a relief worker for a homeless charity, I was not financially affected by lockdown myself and my wife who is also a key worker as a carer in a care home, we managed to keep our heads above water and live comfortably, and we are very grateful for this blessing, I look to the lessons covid19 is teaching us as a collective human race, as I believe covid19 is teaching the human race it must change it’s ways, if the human race is to survive living on mother earth, during lockdowns the air became sweeter and far less polluted, as people used their cars a lot less only for essential travel, the animal kingdom flora and fauna flourished as they were far less impacted by the human race, we could feel mother earth healing beneath our feet, as far less industrial waste was being released into the atmosphere and buried in the ground, people had time to step back from the rat race the work/rest/play cycle and think about what is important in life, and the direction of their lives covid19 is teaching us the value of family friends and quality of life over money, and the joy of simplicity covid19 is teaching us we will not survive on mother earth if we the human race do not change our ways,
2020 effected my spiritual service and pathway as all my church bookings were cancelled, at the beginning of the March lockdownI thought to myself what shall I do now, my spirit guides came to me and said you will have serve us online now, people will still need guidance and the teachings of spirit to assist them on their path, I have always been against doing live readings on Facebook, as now due to the “Spiritual Industry” everyone is a medium, and becoming a medium is seen as a way of making money, and Facebook was and is choc a bloc with people giving free live readings, marketing their wares to get paid private readings, I decided to start doing Facebook lives in the format of a Spiritualist Church service, to accommodate prayer spiritual teaching and absent healing, and that spiritualist church goers would have a familiar online place to be as the churches were closed, many spiritualist churches started doing their services online, and to me and many this has been a very positive step by doing online services, it has brought spiritualism in the UK out to the world, I have been blessed to meet many people from all over the world whilst serving spirit doing online services, but Facebook live had its limitations and in the wisdom of Facebook they took the share screen facility away, making it very difficult for mediums to give messages from loved ones in spirit Angels and spirit guides, and as if by magic Zoom emerged an online meeting service, that enabled we mediums to give spiritual teaching and messages on a face to face basis, and to replicate spiritualist church services as best we can, in a meeting setting we can also play music during online services.
Through the power of Zoom I am now serving new churches and centers in an online capacity, but managed to actually demonstrate mediumship in three spiritualist churches between lockdowns, I was blessed to give charity readings via the Facebook group spiritual uplifting coming together as one, to raise money to pay for funerals for people who died prematurely due to covid19 run by my lovely friend Claire Louise Sutton, I have also given charity readings to raise money to train a hearing dog for medium Andy Musgrave, and to raise money for Stacy Cooper who has and will be undergoing major operations, and also to demonstrate mediumship monthly on the Slough Spiritualist Church Zoom demonstrations, alongside gifted mediums Charlotte Underwood Bill Hughes and Sarah Wawman, I realised people would get fed up with seeing my face all the time, in my Zoom meetings for my Facebook group Spirit Divine Centre, so I invited other mediums to demonstrate their mediumship for, Spirit Divine Centre and this has worked very well and I am thankful to all the mediums, who have demonstrated their mediumship now, I find myself running an online spiritualist centre I feel guided by spirit to do this, as I feel the need to share spiritual teachings as well as giving messages, so I have been doing Stevie’s GasBag a spiritual discussion group, and demonstrating transfiguration and trance to allow spirit guides to give their teachings, and to answer questions from spiritual seekers, on guidance from spirit we did our first trance distance healing via Zoom, which I am told a few people benefitted from it, so I intend to do more trance distance healing in 2021.
Dedicated to June Moore President Walton On Thames Spiritual Church
In the year of2020 I have felt very guided by spirit, back in November 2019it was a freezing night and I was grateful for my nice warm comfy home, and my nice warm cozy bed, I thought of homeless people and how they survive on a very cold night, and how blessed I am to have the comfort I have, but felt useless as to how I could help the homeless on this very cold night, so I prayed that the homeless find warm shelter and food, and that I may be used in someway to help the homeless, in December 2019 I was sitting by my laptop bored, and an incoming email pinged up it was from whiteknights recruitment, telling me that my CV matched there requirements and would I like to become a relief worker for the homeless, I was amazed by how they had found my CV, as for the past 30 years I have been working as a security officer, and my CV is on security job sites not social services sites, I can only say that my prayer had been answered, to be used in someway to help the homeless, I went along for interview that day, and to my surprise being a relief worker for the homeless, has a lot of similarities to my roles in security, my interview was successful and I applied for an enhanced DBS certificate to allow me to work with vunerable people.
In my 30 years as a security officer I have had experience of homeless people, from moving them on from buildings to arresting them for theft, to feed their drug and alcohol abuse, when I was a store detective, but have always felt compassion as to what must have happened to them, to live their lives in abject poverty addicted to drugs and alcohol some mentally ill, or a relationship breakdown rough sleeping on the streets, surely no one can choose that lifestyle realising drug and alcoholism mental illness homelessness, is a series of incidents in someones life that leads to a life on the streets, one memory comes to mind I was a store detective for a well known chain of chemists, a rough sleeper came into the store one day to pick up his methadone prescription, I kept an eye on him as the usual trick with drug abusers, was to collect their methadone then steal something from the store to sell, true to form this guy stole a sandwich a piece of cake and a soft drink, I arrested him outside the store, and took him to the security office I could see he was visibly hungry, on the search he had paperwork on him for housing and drug rehab also a couple of job applications, he told me he was trying to get his life back as heroin had destroyed his life, he was living on the streets and hungry my compassion kicked in, this guy was working very hard to turn his life around, he was not stealing for his drugs habit he stole because he had no money, I let him keep the sandwich cake and drink, this was against company policy as it could not be resold and would have been binned, but I let him keep the food as he was so obviously hungry, I escorted the young man off the premises sending him healing along the way, outside the store I shook his hand and wished him well for the future, he could not thank me enough for allowing him to keep the food.
In March 2020 my enhanced DBS certificate came through, and I started work as a relief worker at two saints hostels, my main duties are cooking and cleaning, wellbeing checks on residents, assisting support workers in their duties, updating daily logs, access control, and being a friendly supportive ear to residents, funding for the homeless has been cut in half due to government cuts, I felt as a spiritualist medium I could do something to raise funds for two saints, so they can continue their valuable work to get homeless people, off the streets and into homes and work, with drug and alcohol rehab and mental health support, I came up with the idea of organising a fundraiser for two saints, by doing an evening of mediumship, with fellow mediums Bill Hughes Charlotte Underwood and Sarah Wawman, but what to call the fundraiser I pondered, my spirit guide Red Cloud came to me and said, why not call it The Spirit Of Christmas as you have been guided into this work, and the teaching of Christmas is all about love kindness and compassion, I thanked Red Cloud a week or so later my medium friend Bill Hughes, started raising funds for Nightwatch his local homeless charity, it made sense to me to raise money for Two Saints and Nighwatch as myself and Bill were working for the same cause, myself Bill Charlotte and Sarah did The Spirit Of Christmas demonstration of mediumship 23/12/20,the total amount raised was £555.48, I looked up the angel number 555 and it told me to expect great change, that evening a colleague told me of a job vacancy nights on a 4 on 4 off basis at a homeless hostel, seeing this as a sign I applied for the job, which if I get it will provide financial security for myself and my wife, and give a deeper meaning to my service to spirit and expression of the will of the great spirit.
2020has not been without personal tragedy as family friends and colleagues have passed away into the higher life, and I feel very blessed to have had those people in my life, and I wish them well and blessings to them for their journey in there new life, on a happier note myself and my beautiful wife Veronica celebrated our first wedding anniversary, on a lovely holiday we had in Torquay and with the money we saved when our cruise was cancelled, we refurbed our lounge including black out curtains, to accommodate transfiguration and trance, I wrote and self published my first book Messenger, about my early spiritual development and poetry, a real highlight for me was giving a talk on imagination via Zoom to The Unity Spiritual Community Of Salt Lake, I also started a home spiritual development circle that has been disrupted by covid19 but Zoom allows me to continue teaching, and in 2020 I have learned to focus on my spiritual path in life, and with the deepest gratitude I thanks all who have shared my path for the love friendship and the lessons, looking forward to 2021 I am looking forward to demonstrating transfiguration and trance for The Centre Of The Open Heart in San Francisco via FB live, and serving spirit in Churches and Centers via Zoom and hopefully in person, as one day covid19 will have run it’s course leaving its lessons hopefully learned, the future to me is the undiscovered creation and feel totally blessed that my path is guided by spirit, I say to all look forward seek and you shall find.
I was taught in spiritual development to seek out the root cause of a condition, whether it be a spiritual or manmade condition, a lot of conditions are attributed to spirit when in fact they are manmade, and vice versa so it is very important to save time and spirit energy to get to the root cause of a condition, in 1988 I was living in Guildford with the girl who was to become my first wife, Val my future wife was a lecturer in psychology at the time at Surrey University, Val met a girl at Guildford Spiritualist Church, who claimed to being haunted by earthbound spirit, I cannot remember the girls name but for the purposes of this book I will name her Vera, Val told me Vera had learning disabilities, and was very worried and frightened by the spiritual activity in her bedroom, where toys and clothes would be thrown around the bedroom, Vera had witnessed her clothes and toys being thrown around, or found her room in a total mess when returning from her classes, Val was convinced Vera was being haunted by a poltergeist. I was not sure as poltergeist activity is very rare, but told Val to advise Vera on what she could do to protect herself from the poltergeist, and that I would invoke a prayer of protection for Vera, a week or two passed by I came home from work one evening, and found Val and Vera having tea and biscuits, Val told me that the poltergeist activity was getting worse, and that Vera had experienced a poltergeist attack that day, Vera’s clothes and toys were floating in mid air and moving in a circular motion around Vera by an invisible force. then after a minute or two the clothes and toys were dropped to the floor, Vera was visibly shaken and experiencing distress from her poltergeist experience, but something was niggling me and I was not sure Vera was experiencing a poltergeist. I channelled some healing to Vera to calm her down, I reassured her I would do my best to make the poltergeist go away, I went through with her a closing down meditation to protect her and also placed protection around her, and Val took her home later that evening Val told me that Vera did not have a good relationship with her father after her mother had died, I told Val that poltergeist activity was known to be common around adolescent children and teenagers, usually due to the hormonal upheaval of adolescence or some upheaval at home the passing of a loved one or divorce or peer pressure, but something still did not ring true.
The following Sunday evening myself and Val returned home from a service at Guildford Spiritualist Church, we received a phone call from Vera crying and in a state the poltergeist had once again made her bedroom a mess, and she had heard a deep male voice calling out her name she was very distressed, myself and Val went to Vera’s home and her bedroom was in a right state looked like a bomb had hit it, clothes and toys everywhere at that moment Vera’s dad who had come home from work, and started shouting at Vera telling her that he had told Vera not to invite people to the bungalow they lived in, and told me and Val to “GET OUT” immediately my native American spirit guide Red Cloud stood close to me and told me, that Vera was making her bedroom a mess and pretending it was a poltergeist haunting, to get her dad to stay home as he worked very long hours at work, and she spent many hours at home, I told Vera and her dad what Red Cloud had just told me, Vera broke down in tears and admitted the haunting was all her own work, and told her dad she did it so he could spend more time with her, Vera’s dad went over to her and held her tightly telling her he did know how she was feeling, and that he worked long hours as a way of coping with his grief over his wife and her mother’s passing, and apologised to Vera for shutting her out, The dad could not thank me and Val enough for our help and for helping him to realise how much Vera needed him, my thanks are with Red Cloud for inspiring me and bringing healing to Vera and her dad.