2025 was a year of change and new beginnings for me, I had separated from my wife 15/10/24, I was living in a room in a shared house, hardly ideal living conditions for me. I was ashamed because I was 64 years old and I found myself washed up on the shore of life, starting from scratch once again, my house mates were half my age. I must admit to feeling a complete failure, but I had a roof over my head and a bed thankful that I was not homeless, I referred to my room as my bolt hole. Whilst I grieved for my marriage, and excited by a new relationship with my girlfriend Julie, this created juxtaposed emotions within me, sadness over my deceased marriage, and contemplating whether I should have entered into a new relationship so soon after separating from my wife. As I had only just started divorce proceedings in December 2024. I saw in the new year with Julie as we stood in the doorway of my digs watching the fireworks, smoking a cigar drinking whisky. I could only wonder what the new year would bring.
I found myself going through a maelstrom of emotions, Julie brought into my life a selfless unconditional love, that gave me the emotional support and healing that I needed, and kept me from sinking into depression and alcohol. I will be forever grateful for her presence in my life at that time, she kept me going when I felt all was lost. To my surprise during this time I found that my mediumship was getting stronger. I can only suggest that when I was living with the ex wife, that we were living in a state of inertia, now I was free from that state of inertia, vibrational energies around me had changed to becoming more vibrant, and I was able to reach up to spirit with a much clearer energy, that greatly improved my link to spirit. I now realise that at that time as it is now is a time of spiritual development, to keep moving forward no matter what was happening, to become at peace with myself taking my vibrational frequency to a higher level. I often tell people that we have to create the right energies for spirit to be able to communicate in, that energy is LOVE. My spiritual development is now developing love through awakening Christ consciousness within.
Before leaving the marital home, I applied for social housing with Hampshire County Council. After filling in the lengthy application form and proving that I had the right to apply for social housing in Hampshire. I was told it could take up to two years to get accommodation. I was pleased that my application had been accepted, and I had taken another step towards creating a new life, a life that gave me security and a forever home, I would bid on homes every Wednesday when homes were advertised. Working for meals on wheels I had delivered meals to many homes that were small and compact, I thought I would get one of those homes for the older person, they have what I needed a separate bedroom, lounge, bathroom, and kitchen. That I did not have to share with anyone, as I was going a bit stir crazy living in that room. 05/06/25 I was offered a property as I had a local connection through my work, 12/06/25 I went to view the property and signed for the keys to the property, it was a large flat near to where I work. I had taken on the tenancy of the flat a blank canvas that could be turned into my forever home, feeling that I had bitten off more than I could chew, as I had no money to decorate or buy white goods and furniture. But I could see the path was opening up in front of me, I had to go for it and move forward, working it out as I go.
A pension company kept emailing me, asking me to look at my pension with them, and decide on what to do with the money. I thought it was a small pension with only £500 to a £1000 in it, as I was in need of cash to invest in the decoration and kitting out of my new home. I decided to have a look at it, to my absolute surprise and delight, the pension was worth £16,400. I was very excited as I now had the money, to create and get everything I needed for my new home. As I had left my marital home with my clothes and DVD collection, I cashed in my pension and paid £4,100 in tax on my pension, this payment in tax I resent to this day, leaving me with £12,300. but enough to sort out my new home and new life. I was a bit daunted by this new project as I had never done anything like this before, 15/06/25 I gave my landlord one months notice on my room, so I had a month to transform my new home and move out of my room. I am useless at DIY so I advertised for a decorator with varying estimates, the decorator I picked decided not to show up, in desperation I put it on Facebook to ask if anyone knew of a decorator who could help me, a medium friend of mine suggested her husband Shawn, I contacted Shawn and he agreed to decorate my flat, he also agreed to build the flat pack wardrobe and install the white goods I had ordered. I will always be grateful to Shawn, for helping me out in my hour of need and for all his hard work. 15/07/25 I moved into my new home fully furnished and decorated.
The year of 2025 has been totally amazing, from down and demoralized the end of my marriage, to a complete new life with a new woman, I finally have a rock solid foundation to grow and become. As I realise I am becoming a new version of myself through spiritual development, since moving in I have opened a spiritual development circle, have done a trance sit, I hope people will visit my home for trance healing and spiritual guidance. throughout 2025 I have realised no matter how dark the day, spirit and the universe will assist us in our journey, if we put our greatest and highest good first, and keep moving forward rather than drowning in our hurt.
Stephen Rowlands 27/12/25
Stephen Rowlands 