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Northern Light 2025

Sitting at home awaiting Julie my girlfriend to arrive, thinking of the drive to premier inn Blackburn south. Contemplating my third visit north to serve spirit, as previous blogs will testify, knowing I am honored and privileged to be invited to serve northern churches three years in a row. Knowing I want to be the best medium that I can be for spirit, and reminding myself we mediums are nothing without spirit, we mediums all to often get caught up in the hype of showbiz spiritualism, leading to exaggerated expectations and ego, I love to travel in my service to spirit, I was told by spirit years ago that I would demonstrate all over the country. It is great to serve new churches and to meet so many dedicated people who run spiritualist churches.

This years visit is bitter sweet as in the last ten months I have separated from my wife, final order of divorce due in late August, now I have a girlfriend and a new home, it has been a rollercoaster of upheaval change and emotions. It was as if I fell asleep in one world and awoke in another, the last ten months have been a time of adjustment for me, adapting to my new world whilst saying a long slow painful farewell to my old world, throughout the last ten months whilst serving spirit in churches. I have found that my mediumship has got stronger and more evidential, I realise that as my marriage was coming to an end I was in a state of inertia, now out of that state of inertia energies are rising and my mediumship is becoming stronger. I have struggled to adapt to my new world as I loved my wife deeply, Julie has been very patient and understanding with me, it still feels strange at times not having my wife around anymore, and not sensing that beautiful togetherness I thought we had.

Sitting at breakfast this morning. with memories of bringing my wife here in 2023, it hit me like a freight train that I had got my life back my life has been reset back to as it was before I met my wife in 2017, when I dwell on my memories of my wife I am living in a past lament. My life has been reset for a reason so now I must embrace it, there must be much to do, for my life to be reset in this way. This thought is very empowering, as I have always felt I am a leaf being blown by the spirit breeze to wherever spirit need me to be, the sense of freedom and purpose I feel right now is indescribable, last year northern light 2024 I grieved for lost love, it was very hard to raise my vibration out of my grief to spirit somehow we managed, this year northern light 2025 is a journey of development discovery and service.

It was great to be serving Clitheroe Spiritualist Church once again. Myself and Julie received a warm welcome from Angela, the new president of the church and her husband Mark, Angela asked me to pick a song or a hymn for service, I picked the hymn Open My Eyes, a traditional spiritualist hymn and one of the first hymns I sang in a spiritualist church 47 years ago, Open My Eyes is still my favourite hymn, I was delighted when Angela told me she was very happy that I had picked a traditional spiritualist hymn. The energy within the church was warm and friendly, a good energy to open to spirit. I took my coffee into the mediums room to meditate and open my channel to spirit, as I opened heart and mind to spirit. I felt the presence of an angel, and George who always calls out his name when I open to spirit, and a black cat.

I was asked to light a candle on platform before I opened the service in prayer, I asked for the light of the candle to bring healing to all in need, opened in prayer followed by the lords prayer. We sang Open My Eyes, then it was time for me to demonstrate mediumship, I see this as a time to connect loved ones in spirit to loved ones on earth, it is a privilege to pass on messages from loved ones in spirit, and I am so very humbled to be a part of that connection. Not only for evidence of survival after physical death, this is secondary to me what is more important is the love, healing, comfort, upliftment, and guidance. A message from a loved one in spirit can bring to a loved one on earth, I was taught that evidence should be given purely for recognition purposes only. This became apparent, when I was connecting a grandmother in spirit to her teenage grandson, she gave her grandson evidence, that his mother sitting next to him did not know. The grandmother in spirit gave her grandson on earth a birthday cake, he confirmed he had just had his seventeenth birthday.

After service he came to me and thanked me for the message, he told me the reason he comes to Clitheroe Spiritualist Church is to talk to his grandmother. I was humbled by this, as yet again it reminds me of why we mediums do what we do for spirit, the heart to heart connection from spirit communicators to their beloved on earth, messages from spirit should always be given through the heart, as they bring upliftment comfort and healing to the bereaved. There is great purpose in spirit communication, to bring not only upliftment comfort and healing, also to bring teaching to raise the collective consciousness of the human soul. Towards the end of service I was giving a lady a message from a spirit lady who came with a black cat, as I mentioned the cat, a dog who had been sitting quietly throughout the service, started growling and barking at something behind me, Angela said this was the best evidence of the night. Another example I would like to share with you 30/07/25 I was serving Cadoxten Spiritualist Church, I gave a message to a young man from several of his loved ones in spirit, after service he told me he walked into church as a sceptic, but messages I passed onto him from his loved ones in spirit, were on point and accurate, and that he would attend church every week to learn more about life after death. The path of spiritual service is so sacred and divine, to be able to bring enlightenment and healing to all who seek through heart to heart connection is beyond words and earthly reward.

Clitheroe Spiritualist Church

My third visit to connections of light Darwen. I must say I love to serve connections, as it is a opportunity to meet old friends, from when I used to do zoom demonstrations for them in lockdown. was lovely to see Andy, Sylvia, Karen, Alice, and Stephanie again. Connections is a high energy church and it is a privilege to open to spirit in this high energy, I am often telling people you get out of spirit communication what you put into it. There is the loving power of spirit within connections of light, because the energy of love has been created within the church by those who run it and also the people who attend. I wish more churches and centres understood, that the building they are in is a medium for spirit, and it is important that the energy of love must be created within the building, to create the right environment for spirit to communicate in. As spirit reach out to us from a realm of unconditional love. Connections also serve their community as a spiritual hub, running workshops and demonstrations from many spiritual disciplines, also raising money for local people and charities and social events. It is an honour for me to serve connections of light. As for the demonstration of mediumship, the love flowed between the spirit and physical realms, evidence was on point and accepted. As always I look forward to serving connections of light next year.

Me with Stephanie Darlington
Me with Andy Ash

It was originally intended, that I should demonstrate transfiguration and trance at Wigan SNU Church, unfortunately Wigan had a flood and they have builders in repairing flood damage, and they would not be open in time for me and my spirit team to demonstrate. Tina the booking secretary for Wigan suggested that she would offer my demonstration of transfiguration and trance to local churches to see if anyone of them would like to host transfiguration and trance. I was delighted when Horwich National Spiritualist Church, offered to host transfiguration and trance the same night, as the Wigan demonstration would have been. Chris the president contacted me and arrangements were made.

Horwich National Spiritualist Church, is a large church with a hundred and twenty six years of history of serving it’s community, it is an honour and privilege to serve there, I was met by the committee who opened the church. I set up the cabinet the lovely Janet agreed to work with me, and guide people who wanted to ask my spirit guide questions to the chair next to the cabinet. Janette told me they have trance demonstrations at Horwich, but this would be the first one with a cabinet and red light. I advised Janette that I wanted to demonstrate transfiguration and trance in the old traditional way, using the cabinet to harness spirit energy, and red light to help people to see spirit easier.

Janet introduced me to the twenty sitters in attendance. I gave a short talk about how transfiguration and trance works, what may happen within the cabinet, as I explained to the sitters something or nothing may happen, as each transfiguration and trance sit that I do is experimental and developmental. Also the safety rules the do’s and dont’s, I sat in the cabinet giving the opening prayer asking for protection and inviting my spirit team to use me as a channel for transfiguration and trance, going into my countdown meditation to trance state.

When I returned back into my physical consciousness, sitters told me they had seen my spirit guides in transfiguration describing them accurately, also some of the sitters had witnessed loved ones appear in transfiguration, the ladies who asked my spirit guide questions told me their questions were answered and now they have a greater understanding of eternal life. Many of the sitters said they experienced the healing energies from the cabinet. I left Horwich National Spiritualist Church, feeling empowered and energised that my spirit team had touched hearts, also a invitation to return next year.

Horwich National Spiritualist Church
Sitters for demonstration of transfiguration and trance

I am very much looking forward to serving Bankfoot SNU Church this evening, my last service of this years Northern Light. This will be the second time I have served Bankfoot, it is a large friendly spiritualist church in Bradford, tonight will be a divine service, with a inspired address and messages from loved ones. I will meditate to receive inspiration for the address from my spirit guides, inviting them to choose which of my poems to read out before I give the address. Today I will rest and meditate as I intend to drive home over night, as I am serving Bognor Regis Spiritualist Centre tomorrow evening.

Arriving at Bankfoot SNU Church around 6pm, I had plenty of time to prepare for service, spiritual healing was being given in the main church, a lady made myself and Julie a cup of coffee. I relaxed as the church began to fill with people, I went to a quiet room to meditate, Steve who chaired for me last year again chaired for me this year, Steve asked me if I was going to give philosophy. I said yes as I see philosophy and teaching as a integral part of raising consciousness, spiritualism with just evidential mediumship is just a glimpse of the truth of eternal life. Knowledge should be given to allow people to put the way of eternal life, into their spiritual practice. The service began I gave the opening prayer followed by the lords prayer, then a meditation to receive spiritual healing was given by the lovely Christine, a lady read out a reading teaching us that everything happens in it’s own time. and that we are all loved and guided, I followed this with an inspired address, stating that we should be aware that we are eternal now, and that we have chosen life on the earth plane, to evolve our eternal soul and the collective consciousness of the human race,

We sang a hymn then it was time for me to connect loved ones in spirit to loved ones present in the church. The energy within the church suddenly uplifted, the messages flowed and evidence was accepted, the laughter of those in attendance really raised the energy, one message I was blessed to have given from a Jewish professor in spirit, to a Muslim lady in the congregation, showing me himself so I could give a full description of him, he also gave her a Menorah Candelabra, the lady was overjoyed to receive a message from him, as he was a very close friend and they used to share deep conversations about religion. That was the last message I closed in prayer we said the vesper, after a cup of coffee and a big slice of Victoria sponge it was time to drive home, as I am serving Bognor Regis Spiritualist Centre 10/08/25. I have come away from Northern Light 2025, feeling empowered and truly blessed, hoping to do it all again next year.

Bankfoot SNU Church
Menorah Candelabra
Me and Julie x

Stephen Rowlands 10/08/25

Consciousness = Thought = Vibration = Energy

We often talk about how life is treating us, we never ask the question of how are we treating life. I live in the knowledge that life is a state of heart and mind, we create our lives from our vibrational state of heart and mind, life is a inner creation rather than an outward experience of perception. All life forms on this planet are conscious with their own distinct vibrational frequency, we should not underestimate the power of our thoughts and emotions, as they are powerful vibrations, with the energy to change life around us like attracts like, as spirit teaches us thought is the most powerful thing in the universe.

To Be Or Not To Be Tis The Question, Whether It Is Nobler In The Mind, To Suffer The Slings And Arrows Of Outrageous Fortune, Or To Take Up Arms Against A Sea Of Troubles, And By Opposing End Them.

Hamlet.

All consciousness has freewill, we must be respectful of this powerful freedom of thought and emotion, and be mindful of the choices we make, as we are creating our lives, life moves forward in a constant rhythm in our world of physical matter. I realise that within the natural laws governing our planet, we must always be moving forward. One door closes another door will open, this is not just an old saying. I have realised this is a truth within natural law, the problems begin when we are banging on the closed door, rather than moving forward and preparing to go through the open door. Life in our physical world of matter, is about change for the evolution of our eternal soul.

We chose to live this life on earth for the evolution of our eternal soul, when we think in terms of eternity, our short life span on this earth is less than a blink of an eye. in this life we experience many changes in mind, body, and spirit. Such as growing young to old, relationships come and go, our beloved passes away, jobs and homes come and go. These are all times of change that cause us hurt and pain, yes we must embrace our hurt and pain, and ask the questions as to why we feel the way we do, what attachments have we formed, to give us greater insight to the spiritual truths, to help us to become aware of how to conduct our lives within the flow of natural and universal law. If we are constantly banging on the closed door, this will lead to our lives to stagnate and become a state of inertia.

Rather than preparing to walk through the open door to a new life and reality, nine months ago my marriage ended, when my ex wife told me she no longer loved me. Yes I was devastated as I loved my wife deeply, I moved from a comfortable home with a beautiful willow tree on the green, to a room in a shared house, 15/10/24 sharing the bathroom and kitchen. I left with my clothes and boxes of dvd’s. As I told my ex wife this was not my first rodeo I knew exactly what I must do. Whilst embracing my sadness I looked forward, knowing I must not go down in heart and mind as I needed my job to be able to afford to live, I had registered for social housing I was bidding on homes every Wednesday, this was creating energy going forward for my new life. this was a time of preparation of letting go of my marriage, and opening the door to a new life.

Myself and an old lady friend Julie, who contacted me to see how I was during my separation, became close as she supported me through my heartbreak. A Mazda salesman contacted me to see if I wanted to rent a brand new Mazda 3 as I could not afford a brand new Mazda 3. I picked up my new Mazda 3 05/03/25. I feel my spirit guides were working with me to create a new life, as myself and Julie had separately wanted to become closer, also I needed a car upgrade as I was travelling further afield in the service of spirit. I was becoming claustrophobic in my small room in a shared house, and resentful of my ex wife for putting me in that position. I knew this was negative energy to feel and it would hold me back from moving forward, I had to change this into a positive energy as positive balances negative in universal law, so I focused my thoughts and emotions into visualising myself in a new home.

In late May I was contacted by Winchester council offering me a flat, as I had a local connection through my job with meals on wheels. On 12/06/25 I signed the contract and got the keys to my new home, my new home was a blank shell with nothing in it. I was worried that I did not have the funds to create my new home, as I am retiring next year, pension companies were contacting me to see what I wanted to do with the money within the pensions. I thought they were worth around a £1000.00, I looked at one pension and to my total surprise and delight, this pension was worth £16,300, so I cashed in this pension after tax it was worth £12,400. this gave me the funds to decorate and buy everything I need for my new home. White goods, furniture, a bed with chaise longue, carpets, the whole kit and caboodle costing me around £11000.00. I moved into my new home 15/07/25, now I am looking forward to spending the rest of my days here. Life moves forward in a constant rhythm, we must become what we need to become, in heart mind and our actions, accept the door to the life we thought we wanted has closed and prepare to go through the open door to a new life. All this was achieved through the practice of spiritual teaching, and going with the flow of universal and natural law, our lives are what we are within.

Stephen Rowlands 30/07/27

Welsh Light

I was very happy to receive a message from the lovely Angela Brigenshaw, who runs Aberaeron Spiritualist Church, with her husband David. Angela asked me if I would like to serve the church, for a divine service on the Saturday, and for a demonstration of trance on the Sunday. I agreed to serve as I love serving Welsh churches, my late father was Welsh. So in my own little way serving Welsh churches, is my way of remembering and paying my respects to my dad. Myself and Angela agreed the dates for both demonstrations to be the 3rd and 4th August 2024. Angela also invited me to stay with her and David whilst I was in Wales, this was a welcome invitation as it would save me the cost of a hotel. Angela also asked if I would like to serve The Ray of Light Spiritualist Church, up the road from them in Llechryd, I said I would if they would like me to serve. During the following week the lovely Linda Mulvey contacted me from The Ray of light giving me a booking for a demonstration of mediumship 6th August 2024. Angela told me I was welcome to stay with her and David until after the demonstration at The Ray of Light. Angela told me they have trouble getting mediums to travel that far to serve them, the least they could do was put the mediums up, who are prepared to travel to them, I thought this was very kind of Angela and David to accommodate we circuit mediums who serve their church.

I arrived at Angela and David’s home at around 4.45pm 02/08/24, after a nearly 6 hour journey from my home near Winchester. I encountered traffic jams on the M4, which delayed my arrival, I was glad to not be driving, I was given a warm welcome, we had dinner and caught up as I have not seen Angela and David for several years. The next morning the sun was shining, it was a beautiful morning, enhanced by the beautiful welsh countryside and mountains. I took a picture of the landscape as I felt blessed to be there, we had breakfast and I relaxed then meditated to prepare for divine service at 2.30pm. Aberaeron Spiritualist Church is around 200 yards from the seafront, the energy of the sea provides beautiful energy, we arrived at church and Angela and David set about preparing church for divine service, apart from the church they have a separate hall adjacent to the church, which they use as a tea room with table and chairs and a kitchen area, they also use the tea room for workshops which is a great use of the space, and helps promote the family and community of spiritualism, the energy in both buildings was amazing. I felt very comfortable to be working there, to my surprise and delight the church was well attended, also present were Ray and Tina Abbot who I had been Facebook friends with for several years, it was great to meet them in person.

At 2.30pm the service began, for the inspired address I read out my poem far away. talking about grieving for the loss of a loved one, and how we as spiritualists should not hang on to the pain of grief , but to let our loved ones go with love to continue their eternal journey. but also to remember the blessing our loved ones in spirit were to us to help ease the pain of grief and the physical loss of our loved ones. A lady said to me before service, that they talk about some strange things at church but at 2.30pm they will be spiritualists. I added in the address that spirituality is a 24/7 thing not just when we are at church, and that I have the same human frailties as everyone else, but as a spiritualist I know that I am connected to something far greater than myself, that guides me in life, and that I endeavor to put the teachings of spirit into practice in my daily life, to turn my negatives into positives and the through the teachings of spirit. I had been on a journey of self discovery, which to me is true spiritual development, and that all people are in a state of spiritual development whether they are aware of it or not.

It came the time for me to demonstrate mediumship to bring messages from loved ones and life guidance from spirit. I must say I felt my link with spirit was not as strong as it usually is, and felt like I was struggling to connect, note to self do not dink a bottle of wine the night before service. but as the demonstration went on the energy of spirit got stronger and stronger, to my relief and the mediumship flowed, I still felt that I had not worked very well. David told me after service that people enjoyed the way I presented mediumship and were impressed by some of the evidence given, after a cup of coffee and a slice of gateaux, myself and David set the church up ready for my demonstration of transfiguration and trance the following evening. Angela and David very kindly took me out for dinner at a local restaurant, we had a lovely meal, then went back their home and a early night was had by all. Aberaeron is a beautiful welsh seaside town and Aberaeron Spiritualist Church has a beautiful energy within, and I must say the congregation were lovely, with the sunshine I feel truly privileged to have served there.

With Ray and Tina Abbot

Transfiguration~Trance Aberaeron Spiritualist Church 04/08/24

It was a lazy morning rising around 10am we had coffee and toast , myself and Angela and David were sharing stories from the platform circuit. I enjoy talking with other mediums, about our experiences on the circuit, I could feel my spirit guides energy building around me I knew it was time to be quiet. So I went to my bedroom played my farm town game, and watched a couple of documentaries on YouTube. I always get apprehensive before a trance demonstration, as it is a step into the unknown and very experimental, it was good to be in my own little world for awhile, Angela cooked a marvelous Sunday lunch, then it was time to meditate and shower to prepare for service. We got to Aberaeron Spiritualist Church at 5.15pm, myself and David had set up the cabinet the day before, so all that needed to be done was play my Enya greatest hits CD and switch the red light on to build spirit energy for the demonstration. Angela made me a cup of coffee, I sat in the tearoom quietly and asked Angels, Spirit Guides, and Loved Ones. To draw close to me to prepare for trance, it came the time to walk across to the church, to my surprise and delight the church was full of people 48 in total, David had to put out extra chairs to accommodate everyone.

I gave the sitters a brief spiritual history of myself, and I explained how transfiguration and trance works, then I discussed health and safety rules with them. 1. please turn your phones off as loud noise, will bring me back to my consciousness with a thud, I told them noise had happened before in three previous trance sits, Each time I was ill taking me a week to recover. 2. please do not touch me as it will bring me back into my consciousness hard. 3. if you need to leave for any reason, or you feel ill please raise your hand, and David will ask my spirit guides to step back, when I am back you can leave. 4. Please use the loo now as you will not be able to use the loo during the trance. I opened in prayer and began my countdown into trance state, as I began my countdown, I heard a voice clearly within my mind saying the name John, my spirit guide Li said to me their is a lady here who needs to hear from John. I continued my countdown to trance state.

My consciousness had arrived within my sacred space, a place of unconditional love, it was time to enjoy the peace and connection of this sacred space, awaiting my spirit guides to bring me back into my physical and material consciousness. After awhile I found myself half in my physical consciousness and half in my sacred space, David had asked my spirit guides to step back and allow me into consciousness, as a lady was feeling claustrophobic and wanted to leave, once she had left and David went back to his seat. I was taken back to my sacred space, in no time at all I was back in a half in and half out state, this time a young man was spooked by the church being in darkness except for the red light upon myself and needed to leave. Once the room had settled again I was taken back into my sacred space. and then a third time I was called back because a medium needed to use the loo and several ladies joined her. This time I was not in a half in half out state, I was more or less back into my physical consciousness, I could feel the spirit of a man on the outskirts of my aura, I told the congregation that as I was going into trance I was given the name John, and spirit guide Li had told me that there is a lady here that needs to hear from John. A lady at the back of the church put her hand up saying my husband is John, I endeavored to give the lady a message from John but his energy was very weak, I invited the lady to sit in front of me. As I knew John was desperately trying to communicate with her, but I could not go back to my sacred space, as by this time through the disturbances to the trance, had greatly weakened the energies and my spirit guides with John stepped back, I apologized to the congregation for not being able to continue, explaining why I could not continue, also that I had never before been called back out of trance state before. I closed the meeting in prayer.

I really felt that I had let people down by not being able to continue the trance, but it ended due to extraordinary circumstances by people needing to leave, due to sickness, becoming frightened, or a medium having a weak bladder, the feedback given from some of the people in attendance was largely positive, they witnessed transfiguration, felt the healing energies being generated from the cabinet, saying they felt better than when they walked in. some gaining insight from the teaching given through me by spirit guide Li. All in all I am happy with what was given by spirit through me in trance state. I am very aware that I need to learn the lessons from that trance session, as demonstration of trance to the general public is fraught with danger, and I think spirit made those lessons apparent in that meeting. In future my trance demonstrations will be ticketed to a maximum of 20 people, they will also be vetted as to their physical and mental health, and they are not of a nervous disposition. Also that they are genuine seekers of spiritual truth. I thank spirit for the lessons learned.

Divine Service Ray of Light Spiritualist Church. Llechryd 06/08/24

Another lazy morning with a lovely breakfast, with spiritual discussion with Angela and David. I went to my room to play my farm town game, and to watch YouTube videos as a way of relaxing before service, I had done most of my packing as I intended to go home after service at Llechryd, as there were road works on the severn bridge causing several miles of tailback, leaving Wales at night time I would avoid the tailback at the severn bridge. Angela cooked a marvelous lunch of lemon chicken pasta and salad, it came the time to shower meditate and load the car ready for service and my journey home. It is only a shot drive to the coracle hall Llechryd, I followed Angela and David in their car, arriving there at 7.10pm, there is a petrol station opposite the hall I took the opportunity to fill up with petrol for my journey home, and parked at the coracle hall. The Lovely Linda Mulvey who runs The Ray Of Light Spiritualist Church, welcomed me to her church, which is a small room within the coracle hall, to my surprise and delight the small room was full of people, most of whom I recognised from the two demonstrations at Aberaeron Spiritualist Church.

The lovely Tina Abbot introduced herself as she was going to be the chairperson for the evening, a gentleman was handing out small scrolls of paper, my scroll read, “Live your life like a candle burning bright with love, so others can see the love in themselves. AR” I thought I must include that in my address, for the address I read out my poem Go I, talking about freewill and grace, and that we should have grace for others as we all make mistakes and do bad things. Having grace for others to me is all about true spiritual development of the soul, I read out the spiritual saying I had been given, I spoke about self love and how spirit need us to shine our inner love light to all. It came the time to give messages from loved ones guides and angels, the messages were positively received, the mediumship was called to time, after notices and closing prayer, I chatted with a few people thanking them for coming to my services, the feedback about the services I am pleased to say was positive. I gave Angela and David my heartfelt thanks for their amazing hospitality and spiritual chats. Without them the three services could not have taken place, as going home after each service would have been logistically impossible and expensive. I can honestly say it has been a real privilege, to demonstrate at Aberaeron Spiritualist Church and Ray Of Light Spiritualist Church. The hospitality I received, the warmth of the welsh people I met, and the beautiful welsh countryside, I left Wales 9.30pm and arrived home 02.10am.

With Linda Mulvey Angela and David Brigenshaw
With Rosyn Deksnis

THOUGHTS

It warmed my heart to see the high level of dedication that Angela and David Brigenshaw, and Linda Mulvey, have in running the Aberaeron and Ray Of Light Spiritualist Churches. It was refreshing to be in the company of dedicated spiritualists, spirit need dedication and commitment not only from we mediums and healers, but also those dedicated and selfless people who run the churches, who keep the doors of the churches open. to facilitate the spiritual seeker, through these dedicated people welsh light shines brightly for all who seek spiritual truth. It was also refreshing to see a mixture of age groups in both churches, hopefully the youngsters will carry the light of spirit into the future, when we have passed into the higher realms, whilst it was a privilege to serve both churches it was also massive a learning curve for me.

There was discussion about how ignorant people have become about spirit communication, and I agree the most haunted tv program and the ghost hunting business that sprang from it, coupled with celebrity and showbiz spiritualism, has done a lot to damage peoples perceptions of mediums and spirit communication, and spiritualist churches. People are ignorant due to a lack of knowledge being shared, about how spirit communication works, and the spiritual development that is necessary on both sides of life, to achieve accurate and meaningful spirit communication. Not only to provide evidence of survival after physical death, but also to give messages of guidance healing and comfort to those who need it, also allowing spirit guides to share the truths of eternal life, to help us develop new ways of thinking being and doing, raising consciousness to help better our lives and our eternal path.

Every time I demonstrate mediumship now, I ask people not to stare at me with a blank faced, or to start gurning at me with arms folded when receiving a message from spirit. As this is very unsettling for the medium and the spirit communicator, I usually remind them that I have done a days work, and travelled however many miles to be there, and the fact is I am getting petrol money, it is not a celebrity show where they have paid a lot of money to get in, so I tell them there is nothing in it for me I am there to bring spirit to them. All we need from them when they get a message, yes, no, or I do not understand. So I can ask spirit for clarification on what they are giving me, so that the receiver of the message can identify the spirit communicator and the information being given. Once upon a time we did not need to tell people this, but more and more mediums and chairpersons, are having to tell congregations at every service, to turn their phones off and to answer yes or no or I do not understand when receiving a message. Back in the day there were only spiritualist churches, which attracted the genuine spiritual seeker, now mediums are demonstrating in pubs and trying to get theatre gigs, this adds to the showbiz mentality of those who attend right I have paid my money now I want to be entertained, and all this belittles genuine mediums and the development put in by both sides of the veil to achieve good spirit communication.

As discussed above, the transfiguration and trance sit at Aberaeron Spiritualist Church, was a massive learning curve for myself Angela and David, inviting the general public many of whom had never been to a transfiguration and trance demonstration was a mistake. on all our parts. my spirit guides told me that the church would be full, but we did not expect 48 people, Aberaeron is a small church so with 51 people in total the church was bursting at the seams. As discussed above the transfiguration and trance was cut short, due to 3 stoppages in the demonstration, I am pleased the people who needed to leave or use the loo, followed the safety protocols put in place, by raising their hands, David asking spirit to step back, worked but in the end spirit energy was insufficient to continue, I decided the next day after discussion with Angela and David, that I would limit future transfiguration and trance sits to 20 people and make it a ticketed event, to attract the more genuine spiritual seeker to attend. With stricter controls in place, I feel strongly we need to educate people about spirit communication and how it all works, so these problems do not arise again, and to teach people that a demonstration of mediumship, is not Saturday night at the london Palladium. Whilst my time in Wales was a privilege and a total blessing, I am thankful for the lessons learned.

Stephen Rowlands 07/08/24

Attacked By The Demons Of Religious Ignorance And Hypocrisy

What I am about to write is something that I have struggled with for years, my heart was broken into a zillion pieces way back in 1986, memories come to mind of the girl when I hear certain songs, or something I see on television that reminds of the day in 1986, my heart was broken. December 1985 my friend Del invited me out with his girlfriend, and her friend Lisa (using a different name to protect her privacy) who was very interested to meet me, as Del had told her I am a medium. The four of us met at a nightclub in Reading, Lisa was a pretty girl with long black hair and beautiful eyes. I was immediately attracted to her, we drank we danced we laughed and talked, I told her about my mediumship which she took great interest in, at the end of the evening I plucked up the courage to ask her for her phone number, which to my suprise and delight she gave me her phone number.

I phoned Lisa a couple of days later from the phone box outside my school on the Langley Road, to my absolute delight Lisa agreed to go out on a date with me, we made arrangements to meet for drinks in The Blagrave Arms in Reading, then go to a pizza restaurant afterwards. After a drink in The Blagrave Arms we moved to The Tudor Arms, the song playing on the jukebox was Good Vibrations by the Beach Boys, as I listened to the words of the song I knew I was falling for Lisa, she was a beautiful girl and we seemed very much in tune with each other. After pizza I walked her to the taxi rank at Reading railway station, and on that crisp frosty night we kissed our lips embracing in a magical moment, and we agreed we would like to see a lot more of each other, I opened the taxi door and bid Lisa farewell until next time, I travelled home on the train back to Slough, elated I had kissed a beautiful girl, and the fact that she wanted to date me in the future.

At the time I did not drive but I was learning to drive, as travelling by public transport to demonstrate mediumship in Spiritualist churches was becoming a real chore, this meant I would travel to Reading to meet Lisa in Reading. I passed my driving test February 17th 1986, I bought my first car a Cortina Crusader, now I had my independence I could drive to Spiritualist Churches, and pick up Lisa from her work as a live in nanny for a family in Caversham. We dated for several months and I had fallen head over heels in love with Lisa, and I felt she felt the same way about me, one balmy evening in July 1986 Lisa asked me to give her a baby and nature took it’s course. I said to her if you fall pregnant with our baby I will marry you, Lisa was against the idea of getting married but she said, we could live together to raise our child, and if everything worked out then she would marry me. I was over the moon everything was falling into place for me, as I was with the love of my life and we were about to become a family.

August 1986 everything was going well although Lisa was becoming more distant from me, I asked her if she had fallen for our baby and Lisa told me she was not pregnant, asking me to wear a condom when we made love, this I thought was strange as I thought she wanted to start a family with me, Lisa told me that she had asked me for a baby whilst in the throes of passion with me, but she had second thoughts, and thought it was best to wait until she was sure she wanted to have a baby with me. This I accepted as being a sensible decision, I have always worn my heart on my sleeve and I thought me and Lisa would be together forever, and it would be best to build our relationship slowly. In September 1986 Lisa joined me and my family for a day out at a steam rally, Lisa hardly said a word to me all day, this concerned me I wondered what I had done wrong, but Lisa would not tell me what was a matter with her.

It came the time to take Lisa home back to Caversham, as we drove I was asking her to talk to me and tell me why she was being so quiet and distant from me, I stopped the car outside her home Lisa took my hand with tears in her eyes, she told me that she could not see me anymore she loved me it was not my fault it was hers. I begged Lisa to change her mind telling her no matter what was wrong we could work through it, Lisa was very emotional but adamant she could not see me anymore and that it was best we split up, and would not tell me why we should split up, Lisa got out of the car and went inside. I was absolutely devastated my whole world being destroyed around me. I drove home sobbing my heart out feeling that half of me had been ripped away from me, over the next month I was phoning Lisa begging her to talk to me, eventually she agreed to come out for a drink with me so we could talk, by this time Lisa’s job had ended, and she moved back to Sonning Common to live with her father, I picked Lisa up and we went to the local pub, I spent the evening begging Lisa to come back to me, and that whatever was wrong we could put it right.

Lisa invited me back to her home for coffee, promising me she would finally tell me why she had broken up with me. As we sat in the kitchen with our coffee Lisa told me she had in fact been pregnant with my baby, but it was wrong to have my baby as I am a spiritualist medium, the elders at her catholic church had advised her to terminate the pregnancy, as I was a spiritualist medium because demons were working through me, and she had in fact conceived a demons baby. I was horrified and could not believe what I was hearing, Lisa told me she had terminated the pregnancy a week after ending our relationship, saying she had gone back to her catholic faith, because in her catholic teaching she knew it was wrong to be with a spiritualist medium. I felt deeply sick in the pit of my stomach, that she had aborted our child because of my spiritual practice and knowledge, by this time we were both crying, Lisa said her elders had told her she had sinned by being with me, and she had broken the first commandment.

I the lord am your God you shall not have other Gods besides me.

I reminded Lisa that I am a Christian Spiritualist, and that we pray to the same God as the catholic church, and that there is only one God for everybody no matter what the different religions choose to name that God. I reminded Lisa that I wear a cross and know of Jesus Christ and the christ light, and had spoken to Jesus in meditation and given messages to people from him, and that Jesus is the true example of my knowledge he lived and died and rose again into eternal life, I reminded Lisa of her telling me about people speaking in tongues in her church, and were they sure that in fact demons were not communicating through them and they were actually speaking the words of demons. I told Lisa about all the sexual and physical abuse committed on young people by catholic priests and nuns. By this time I was very angry and told Lisa, that the devil and his demons were alive and well and working through the catholic church, and that her elders were being controlled by demons through their ignorance and hypocrisy, and that I thought the catholic church was against abortion, stating the 5th commandment.

Thou shall not kill.

How could she and the church elders justify killing an innocent life, when in their own belief system God commands them not to kill. Lisa told me the church elders justified her having an abortion as our child was the son of Satan, and would inflict great evil on our earth. I was very angry, I felt so dirty that Lisa believed I worked with and was being controlled the devil, and betrayed by Lisa, believing that our child had been conceived through an act of love, also absolutely mortified that our child had been murdered by religious ignorance and hypocrisy, that I thought only existed in medieval times. Our relationship was now over, I drove home sat down asking God Angels and Spirit Guides to give our baby safe transition into spirit and healing, the hurt from this has continued to this day. The fact that our child was murdered by Lisa and her catholic church elders because of me being a spiritualist medium, has made me sick to the core of my being. It has taken me thirty seven years to write about this and put it out there, hoping healing will come, so that I can forgive and through my knowledge and mediumship end religious ignorance and hypocrisy forever.

Stephen Rowlands

Finding Balance In 2022

As I sit contemplating my yearly boxing day blog, I am wondering were to start, going back to October 2021. I was working as a relief worker for Two Saints at their Acton Lodge Hostel, a support worker had resigned due to his ill health giving a month’s notice, as a replacement had not been found, the manager asked me if I would like to work in the community rather than being hostel based. Working in the community would mean supporting clients in sublet accommodation, as well as clients in hostels awaiting sublet accommodation, the clients had previously been homeless suffering with drug, alcohol, and mental health issues. I jumped for this new opportunity as I wanted to do more to help clients, rather than day to day hostel duties. I explained to my manager that I had no experience of support work, but I would love to give it a try, as I hoped to become a full-time support worker, I had applied for the vacant position. this would mean I would have practical experience, and it would support my job application.

I feel I have learned important lessons during my time employed by Two Saints. I will discuss the lessons I learned throughout this blog. January 2022 started with me suffering with covid. Although I felt I had recovered enough to do my first service, which was a zoom demonstration of mediumship for Bognor Spiritualist Centre, the meeting went well although my voice became hoarse, and the meeting was called to time, fortunately before my voice gave out. A private reading with me was raffled, I was told lots of people had bought raffle tickets, because the reading would be with me, I know this sounds arrogant, but it made me feel good to know that my spirit team’s work, through me was touching heart’s helping people and making it’s mark.

I started out with a caseload of ten clients, and considered as a complex caseload, because of the client’s lifestyle, addictions, and mental health. I realise now as I am writing that I had bitten off more than I could chew, I started to realise that I had been thrown in the deep end. As a relief worker I was not entitled to travelling expenses, but I was expected to visit clients using my own car, and I had to get business insurance for my car, as at times I would have to take clients to professional appointments, such as doctors, dentists, and hospitals, or to the council, or to get benefit assessments, or to move clients from one property to another with their belongings. I was also not entitled to a company phone, as I could not give clients my personal phone number, this made things difficult, if a client wanted to phone me they had to leave a message at hostel for me, or if I needed to phone a client. I would have to drive back to hostel to phone them, or call hostel staff to call the client to give them a message from me.

In January 2022 I was interviewed for the role of support worker along with other candidates, I was unsuccessful in my application, and the job was offered to another candidate. I was a bit miffed as since October 21 I was working the vacant post without the correct renumeration, phone or training to do the job being asked of me, my manager asked me to do certain online training courses, but when I tried to do the training courses, I was not allowed to do them as I was still a relief worker. A week or so later I was told they could not employ the successful candidate in the community role, as she did not have a car or driving licence, she had started work at a hostel a bus ride from her home.

I was offered the support worker role. In hindsight I should have rejected the job offer, because it was clear I was second choice for the role, as a colleague reminded me a few days later. But I was happy as now. I would be working on a full-time basis, the working hours were 9am-5pm, which would allow me to earn a decent wage and accommodate my spiritual service, on the 7th February 2022 I started work aa a homeless recovery worker, not only did I have to manage my caseload, a new world of training had opened up for me, which meant I would lose alot of time to do training. I was working longer and longer hours to keep up with my caseload and the admin that comes with it, my predecessor had not done up to date support plans for the clients I had inherited from him, or arranged housing benefit for a client , which led to extra workload, with me asking lots of questions, as I had never dealt with housing benefits before.

It was at this point I realised I was becoming stressed, with my workload as I was working extra hours to keep up, also doing 3-4 services a week online and in person. I was not getting anytime for myself and quality time with my wife. I just seemed to be constantly working, the only respite I seemed to have was when it was time to sleep, as in the darkness of the night there was no expectation of me. and I could relax, at times I still had to meditate to relax enough to sleep, as to what I needed to do or worrying about what I may not have done was heavy on my mind, me and my wife had booked a 11 night cruise to the canary islands in March, which I was very much looking forward to, as I had never been on a ocean cruise before, and it would be a break from everything visiting new places, a time to rest and relax and spend time with my wife, who I missed as I was always working, and hoping to be inspired by the sea to write new poems.

My wife and I were very excited to travel to Portsmouth, to board our cruise ship the valiant lady 21/03/22. We were greeted with a champagne reception when we boarded, my wife and I had booked a rock star suite on deck 11 at the stern of the ship, we sailed later that day having a gorgeous steak dinner before bed time, it was an 80’s cruise and live entertainment was provided by Martin Fry of ABC, Toyah Wilcox, Annie Logan of Altered Images, and Carole Decker of T’Pau, and Tony Hadley of Spandau Ballet. It was great to see them perform their hits live, over the cruise back in the day I loved all of my heart by ABC, and always wanted to see it sung live, so to watch Martin Fry singing All Of My Heart was truly my best highlight of the cruise, Veronica spent the first two days of the cruise in bed sea sick, to cut a long story short, the food was great and to a very high standard, the staff were wonderful, but other than the 80’s entertainment, there was not really much else to do on board the ship, apart from drink and lie on a sun lounger, there was also a blues band that entertained during the day in one of the bars.

Our cruise was struck by tragedy as a passenger had to be airlifted to hospital, due to a medical emergency, and we had to sail back a few hours so the helicopter could reach our ship, a man committed suicide by jumping overboard, he told his wife he was going to get some air as she was going to bed, his wife woke up 8 hours later to find that he had not returned to her, and a ship wide for him began, he captain made a tannoy announcement that the man was seen on cctv, jumping overboard and that no one else was involved, under maritime law we had to sail back to the man’s last known position, and search for him, we sailed back and the ship carried out a 100 mile search with the help of the French coastguard, once we had reached the search area me and Veronica and many passengers looked out to sea to see if we could spot him. The man was not found and an eerie silence fell upon the ship, our hearts going out to his wife and family.

Our cruise had been badly delayed, but it was no one’s fault the tragic circumstances for the delays, could not have been anticipated, it meant for me and Veronica that we spent a lot more time at sea watching movies in our suite, day trips were cancelled and our time in port was shortened, we did manage to visit Santa Cruz, Gran Canaria, Tenerife, and Lisbon. But basically it was just like being dropped off at the shops, in Tenerife me and Veronica walked around the shops and had coffee in a cafe, I remarked to Veronica “we could have done this in Eastleigh”. In Santa Cruz we hopped on board a coach trip that took us around the local sights and places of historical interest, with a very informative tour guide, that was a lovely day.

We landed back in Portsmouth 01/04/22, we saw the new Royal Navy aircraft carrier The Queen Elizabeth. to be bluntly honest I could not wait to get off the ship and go home, as I felt quite depressed this may sound very ungrateful, but due to spending a lot of time at sea with nothing much to do except eat and drink, and the tragedy that had occurred on board, coupled with the stress I thought I would escape from with this cruise, my mental health was way worse than before the cruise. I do feel blessed that me and Veronica could afford the cruise, but tragedy aside I guess cruising is not for me, tragedy aside my Veronica loved her time at sea and we may book another cruise in the future,

I returned to work 04/04/22 as expected I spent the first day replying to and actioning received emails, and visiting clients over the next 3 months my work load got heavier and heavier due to staff sickness, and being expected to cover hostel duties, as well as my own caseload and my off sick colleagues caseload, this I shared with another colleague who was also feeling stressed about he extra workload, I also had 2 complex clients that were being evicted and moved to another address, plus another client who I was trying to get sublet accommodation for, this involved a lot of report writing phone calls and emails, I was working longer and longer hours to keep up with my work load, coupled with doing 3-4 demonstrations of mediumship a week, I was not getting any adequate rest or quality time with Veronica, more than once I would get home at 7pm a quick meditate and tune in, and would be demonstrating mediumship by 7.30pm. During April 2022 I self published my collection of poetry titled Reflections on Amazon UK.

Over time I was becoming more and more stressed and anxious, as I could not keep up with my caseload and the workload it generated, I was also having to take time off to do training, which was giving me less time to focus on my workload. I had already resigned once before but was talked out of it by the service manager, things were coming to a head as I was becoming more and more stressed and dreading going to work each day, I took a weeks holiday in July, to decide what I was going to do with my life, and whether I could cope with stress and anxiety, and continue to do my job also realising the stress and anxiety, was getting harder and harder to rise above, and this would have a very negative effect on my spiritual service and marriage, my mental health was effecting my physical health as I was finding it very hard to sleep.

I unloaded my worries and woes onto my spirit guides, Red Cloud advised me if I did not find balance soon in my life, I would become to ill and I would be no good to anyone, and it would cut my pathway short, and they with me would not be able to achieve future service, I was reminded when I worked for an agency working around my spiritual commitments, I was rested and the household finances did not suffer, this was a lightbulb moment for me, although I realised Red Cloud was stating the obvious, my stress and anxiety was really affecting my train of thought, I decided to resign from Two Saints and go back to working for an agency so I could earn money have a better quality of life, and be well and rested enough for my spiritual service. 11/08/22 was my last day of working for Two Saints, it was a frantic day trying to complete the tasks my service manager and unloaded on me that day, I was full of stress and anxiety, my service manager asked me to return as a relief I told her I would think about it, a colleague asked me if I would come back as a relief, I told her with the way I was feeling I would not be back, staff had a collection for me, I received a lovely farewell card a bunch of sun flowers 2 bottles of my favourite wine sauvignon blanc and a box of maltesers, I was touched by their generosity.

My colleague Louisa invited me for farewell meal and drinks after work, I picked her up at the hostel she worked at and ranted about the events of the day, but I was touched she wanted to say a proper farewell to me, the sun was shining we sat in a pub garden had a drink and a meal which was most welcome I dropped her off in Gosport after the meal and went home, feeling relief about leaving my job and sentimental about my time with Two Saints, a curious mixture of emotions. I took the following week off to meditate and rest to get my stress and anxiety under control, midweek I went back to driver hire and signed on with them, a temp to perm job with meals on wheels was mentioned, I told them that the hours suited me and the hourly rate was good, I had a current DBS certificate so I start straight away, 22/08/22 I started work with meals on wheels and I have not looked back.

I am currently applying to work for meals on wheels full time on a 22 hour contract, which accommodates my spiritual service, I am renewing my DBS certificate once that is done I will be full time with meals on wheels, my stress and anxiety did not dissappear, it took a lot of meditation and self healing before I felt myself again, so I say to all take the time to be kind to yourself especially with mental health, myself and Veronica had a lovely week in York, to celebrate our 3rd wedding anniversary 07/09/22, sadly HM The Queen passed away 08/09/22, myself Veronica and the whole nation felt her loss as she was the only Queen we had known throughout our lives from birth, whilst in York I was invited to demonstrate trance healing at Harrogate Spiritualist Church, which was an honour and a blessing to do, 11 people received healing that night, also people saw loved ones and guides appear in the cabinet.

Spiritually I have got busier and busier, I am very blessed to say my 2023 diary is full, 2022 has taught me that I am not 30 years old anymore and I cannot do now what I did then, work full-time and do 3 demonstrations of mediumship a week, I have not got the energy I had 32 years ago, but hopefully now I have things in place, whereby I have balance in all areas of my life and the energy to fulfill all my commitments, I have also learned that I am not as mentally tough as I thought I was, and that self care with mental health is just as important as physical health.