I Am Me
Some people say I am lazy
Some people call me crazy
Some fear some hold me dear
After All I Am Me
He has cut his hair
He does not care
He would not dare
After All I Am Me
He has put on weight
He is always late
He has lost weight
After All I Am Me
He thinks to much
He drinks to much
After All I Am Me
I know who I am now
It is all in the past
Today you still cannot grasp
That I am becoming me
Look at yourselves
And as you delve
You will find the God
Who knows me
Who are you.
Stephen Rowlands 19/11/19
My first Poem I wrote back in 1990 revamped
Creation Intelligent Consciousness
Have you ever tried to imagine that there is no such thing as creation, space, planets, our planet, and life, that you yourself do not exist it is in fact impossible to imagine, because we are consciousness all we can perceive is consciousness, consciousness manifests in the form that it vibrates, there is no such thing as nothing but if you live within the mortal mind nothing is all there is, just physical being a functional brain for a physical body, consciousness generated by a physical brain for a limited time, how far from the truth can that be when consciousness and creation are eternal, our consciousness is a spark of creation.
Our mortal consciousness will see creation as finite, when in truth creation is infinite, our thoughts and actions our creation echoes into eternity, as we are eternal do we not see that we have a sacred responsibility to creation and life, we as humankind vibrate at a low level within the kaleidoscope of creation, as our consciousness is very warlike and territorial driven by greed, and the need for power we have struggled to come to terms with our place in creation, seeing ourselves as separate from creation, in truth we are woven into the tapestry of known and all creation.
Humankind has never been able to completely shut out the truth, and has searched for the truth through religion, in how we perceive life and creation to give us the answers to questions, words can be great deceivers we perceive holy as being supernatural, in truth holy is the beauty of creation, not supernatural as everything in our perceived lives is perfectly natural, everything we do individually and collectively is an interaction with creation.
But our religions have made creation into a supernatural being to be worshipped, the truth being creation is the intelligence of life, within the known and unknown laws of the universe, infinite and eternal we are the energy of life energy cannot die, when the physical world ebbs away to dust, it is our energy our consciousness that travels to the higher vibrations of spirit.
It is the frequency and vibration of our consciousness that we call spirit, as Tesla once said if we wish to understand the universe, we should think in terms of frequency and vibration, it is time for the human race and the religions of the world, to move away from the supernatural and seek out the truth of our being and purpose through the frequency and vibration of consciousness, and that is where we will discover the consciousness of love, and our connection to all life.
Stephen Rowlands 11/10/19
Guided By Spirit To Cirencester
At home from work in bed tired and weary after a night shift, 07/01/14 I was just dropping off to sleep, when my mobile phone rang “who the hell can that be” I thought, I answered the phone very drowsy and not in a good mood the caller a lady, introduced herself as the booking secretary for Cirencester Spiritualist Church, she told me that they had a cancellation for their divine service Saturday night, and she had found a piece of paper in her mediums book with my name and number on it, but she did not know who had given her my name and number, and how the piece of paper had got into her mediums book, the mediums she had phoned were all busy, so in desperation she thought she might give me a try.
I explained to the lady that although I would love to serve her church, Slough is a long way from Cirencester, would the church be able to meet my fuel expenses, myself and the lady agreed expenses at £30.00, the lady was very baffled as to how she had got my name and number, my only explanation was that I had served Stroud Spiritualist Church back in the 90’s, and perhaps someone from there had took my name and number to recommend me, and somehow it had found it’s way into her mediums book, she told me that is not possible, I confirmed with her that I would serve Cirencester Spiritualist Church at 19.30 hrs 11/01/14, we said our goodbyes and as I laid down to sleep, I thought this is a mystery but this service must be meant to be, and spirit must want me to serve there for some reason.
On 11/01/14 I made my way to Cirencester Spiritualist Church nervous and excited, about what my purpose could be for serving spirit there, it was a cold misty winters night I arrived with 45 minutes to spare, before the service began I was greeted with a warm welcome, as I introduced myself as the medium for the evening, it was a medium sized SNU Church, but looking around I felt it was a strict SNU Church this made me a bit nervous, as I had not demonstrated at this level for some time, as I am quite laid back and down to earth in my presentation of philosophy and spirit messages, I was also wearing blue jeans and a navy blue collarless shirt and white trainers, which made me feel quite scruffy and felt strongly from my spirit guides, that I should really smarten up to serve them in Spiritualist Churches, the booking secretary arrived and introduced herself, as we shook hands she said ” I really don’t know how I got your name and number” I replied ” it’s a mystery but lovely to be here” I was shown to a side room to meditate and gain attunement to spirit, my spirit guides gathered around me I asked them what is my purpose for being here, Red Cloud just smiled at me thanks I thought, I was very nervous but my spirit guides were coming around me, with such strength I thought just go for it.
The booking secretary popped her head around the door and said it is time, she led me to the platform the church was well attended, which was a refreshing sight as less people attend divine services, as compared to evenings of clairvoyance I took my seat on the platform, nervous and calling on my spirit guides to come closer, as I shut my eyes I could see my grandad and he said to me we are in the moment, I opened my eyes and felt a very strong emotion, as if it was my first time serving spirit at a divine service, I was truly within the moment with spirit, I cannot explain the emotion but it felt euphoric, I was very drawn to the 7 principles of spiritualism hanging on the wall to my left, and I realised that my whole life I had been living not always correctly to the 7 principles, the 7 principles are in fact universal law, my spirit guides were giving me thoughts about the 7 principles, I felt very stongly that the 7 principles should be modernised, as they were communicated to the level of understanding at the time, the 7 principles were communicated to spiritualism through the mediumship of Emma Hardinge Britten in 1871 this is 2014 I thought, understanding of spirit and how the universe interacts with us has changed, they should be reworded so they can be understood by all.
It came time to give the inspired address to the congregation, I stood up and explained that I was very drawn to the 7 principles of spiritualism, but felt they were out of date, and needed to be modernised, not the thing I should be saying in a SNU Church I exclaimed to laughter from the congregation, let us look at the 7 principles of spiritualism from spirits view.
1, The Fatherhood Of God
Today we understand what we call God as a great universal energy and intelligence the creator of all things, yes our father in biblical times but 2000 years later, we should update to oneness or empathy with creation instead of the fatherhood of god.
2, The Brotherhood Of Man
Have women not been created yet ( laughter from congregation ), when the 7 principles were communicated it was very much a mans world, women did not have the vote and had less rights than a man, now today we live in a age of equality perhaps this principle could be changed, to the unity of the human race, it would be more in keeping with the principle of the brotherhood of man, and would be a modern interpretation of this principle.
3, The Communion Of Spirits And The Ministry Of Angels
As spiritualists this principle is a cornerstone of our knowledge as is eternal life, the word communion by definition, is the sharing of intimate thoughts and feelings on a mental or spiritual level, spirit and angels communicate with us in thoughts and feelings, the universe communicates with us in thoughts feelings and synchronicities, it is not only mediums and healers that have communion with spirits and angels and the universe, everyone can communicate with spirit angels and the universe as we are all interconnected by creation, spirit teach that all things come from one source, and it is this one source that connects us all and everything together, spirit teach that thought is the most powerful thing in our universe, so let us all use our thoughts to communicate with our loved ones spirit guides angels creation and the universe, spirit angels creation and the universe will communicate back to us in different ways, but we have to be aware enough to perceive what is coming back to us, this is where spiritual development comes in and teaches us how to communicate on many levels, I feel the third principle could be simplified to universal communication.
4, The Continuous Existence Of The Human Soul
This principle is the spiritualist aim to prove survival the spirit and soul, after physical death and as we all know this truth is ongoing, but it is not just the human spirit that survives physical death, all that has life has spirit even a rock or a mountain has life and spirit, because everything can be broken down to atoms and atoms have energy, and it is a level of this energy that is spirit, that we have not invented a machine that can measure that energy yet, I feel this principle could be simplified to eternal life.
5, Personal Responsibility
We are all responsible for our thoughts and deeds in life, in this principle it teaches us to take responsibility for our thoughts and actions, how many times have we heard people complain about their lives, when in fact they are the creators of their lives, so they should take responsibility for how their lives turn out, and guide them to change their lives for the better, in universal law we are responsible for our thoughts and deeds as you give so shall you receive, I feel this principle should not be re worded because it is what it is, but I feel should be taught in churches and development circles.
6, Compensation And Retribution Hereafter For All The Good And Evil Deeds Done On Earth
This principle is very much universal karmic law, simply as you give so shall you receive in eternal life, there are many different levels of spirit as above so below, the level we go to in spirit depends on our thoughts and actions here on earth, spirit guides teach that we create heaven or hell in spirit, depending on our thoughts and actions on earth, this teaching should guide us to be loving kind and compassionate in our thoughts and actions here on earth, the truth is we create our own heaven or hell this could be brought up to date to, as you give as you give so shall you receive in eternal life.
7, Eternal Progress Open To Every Human Soul
This principle is very outdated and wrong, all that has life has soul whether human animal plant mineral, animals communicate with us from spirit, we can also communicate with elemental spirits, earth air fire and water all thing, from one source so all things have soul, and it is in this truth we can see the levels of spirit working here on earth, we can progress spiritually here on earth to raise our soul up another level, we can still do so in spirit we can also go backwards, depending on what level we choose to vibrate at through our thoughts and actions, this principle simply needs to be updated to eternal progress open to every soul.
The inspired address appeared to be well received by the congregation, after the next hymn it was time for the demonstration of mediumship, messages from loved ones spirit guides and angels flowed, there were tears and laughter and I was very relieved, as my nervousness told me I would not get anything, after the service three lovely people, Anne Cosh Barbara-Ann Winter and Mark Sloper, told me how much they enjoyed the service as did others, and they recommended me to other churches to serve, the booking secretary was very happy that the service went well as I was unknown to them, but how she got my name and number is still a mystery, but I suspect spirit played a big hand in it, she said she would re book me again but I have heard nothing more from her or the church.
Whatever the reason was for spirit guiding me to Cirencester Spiritualist Church, I do know that I have learned a lot from it, that I am still a medium and spirit wish to communicate through me, a lot of good has come from that service I have made friends and served other churches, and I thank spirit for the blessing of their guidance.
Stephen Rowlands 11/01/19
My Prayer For Protection Answered
I have often spoken about prayer describing prayer as thought, as a lot of people are put off prayer, by the religious connotations of prayer, I find prayer to be a useful tool in my daily life, to help me focus on what I need to do, in a religious sense prayer is our communication with the divine, we pray and a religion created God answers our prayers or not within our own perception, creation in one way or another, interacts with us in lessons to help us achieve what we are praying for, spirit guides have often taught that thought is the most powerful energy in the universe, so thinking about it the energy of our thoughts in prayer, are a real interaction with the lifeforce and energy of creation, that religion calls God.
Our light within communicates and interacts with the source light of creation, through our hearts and minds, how many times have we become at peace after prayer, this is a indication of our light interacting with source light, as we receive thoughts from the source of creation, we can gain guidance from source light, and help us to change our lives for the better, the spiritual journey here on earth, is very much a inner journey to develop light within us, by the lessons we receive from source light, to guide us on our spiritual journey here on earth, I feel inspired to write about my life and prayer at this point in time, to give an example of how our inner light, interacts and communicates with source light and wisdom.
I have been working as a security officer for the past 28 years, in varying roles in that time I have been shot at stabbed with a needle kicked and punched, and suffered various injuries from these assaults, for the past 3 months I have been working as a retail security officer, deterring shoplifters from stealing goods from a well known food retailer, the scene has changed very much from when I was a store detective 12 years ago, it used to be very cat and mouse with shoplifters doing there best to avoid detection, for fear of prosecution, today the police will not respond to shoplifting as it is deemed low level crime, due to government cuts to police and lack of resources, now shoplifters are openly stealing and being violent, if store security or shop staff try to stop or apprehend them, as their is now little or no chance of them being prosecuted and sentenced, my role is becoming more staff protection than being a deterrent to shop thieves.
I must admit at 58 years old this concerns me, as I am not as physically fit, and cannot be as physically aggressive as I used to be, in deterring and arresting shoplifters, for the past couple of weeks I have been working in a store, where assaults on staff are very much on the increase, my role is to visit a different store in that chain everyday, but due to assaults at this store on staff by shoplifters, the store has asked for a greater security presence there, on 21/11/18 I arrived at the store and I did not know why, but I felt I should pray and ask for protection for myself and the store that day, at 18.04 hrs a male and female entered the store, who I knew to be shoplifters, he is about 6′ 5″ tall and powerfully built, and in his mid twenties early thirties, the female is tall and skinny with obvious signs of drug abuse, I walked quickly to the meat section, as I knew they were going to go for the high value steaks, the male walked around to the next section, where the lamb and gammon joints were, the female stood about 5′ away from me pretending to browse the ham and burgers, I stood in front of the steak to protect it.
About 20 seconds later the male appeared with his open carrier bag, he said to me “keep out of the way mate this is nothing to do with you” and started to put steaks in his carrier bag, I started to take the steaks from him, telling him they are not his steaks and to leave the store, some pushing and shoving between us ensued, I was pushed back into the chiller but bounced back at him, he kept saying to me “do not touch me” I replied leave the steaks alone, this went on for about 45 – 60 seconds, in the struggle some steaks fell on the floor, and I stood on them to protect them from theft, myself and the male just looked at each other, it was a silent and eerie split second, he could see I was not going to retreat, then he and the female left the store, a manager who had witnessed the incident asked me if I was ok, I dialled 101 and reported the incident to police, also reporting it as a assault on myself as I was pushed into the chiller, knowing the police would give this incident more attention.
23/11/18 a police officer came to the store, to take a statement from me reference the assault on me and the theft of steak from the store, and to seize cctv evidence, the police officer told me that the male I wrestled with, was a nasty piece of work and was involved in a vicious assault on another man, which the man will take several months to recover from, my prayer for protection that day came back into my mind, realising I could have been seriously injured that day or worse, in that eerie split second in the incident, I believe spirit spoke to the male and he made the decision not to harm me and walk away, over giving me a good hiding to allow him to steal the steaks, I am so thankful and grateful to creation angels and spirit guides, for answering my prayer protecting me that day, and this is also my example of the power of prayer, and how our interaction through prayer with the source of creation works.
Stephen Rowlands 25/11/18
Conscious Within Christ Light
I sit down to pray in my dark room, visualising a white cross, to focus my love for healing, I find myself floating in the stars, looking down on mother earth, a jewel in the crown of creation, in awe of the starlight the realisation comes, I am floating in Christ light, it is still and silent the permanance of eternity, nothing can shatter this connection to all things, no ripples can disturb this divine space.
At one and conscious within Christ light, I must still my mind for the message to be heard, and understood in heart, he never came to free us from sin, he came to show us we are eternal, to look beyond ourselves to see our need for wealth status and power, are of little relevance in eternal life, he was not a saviour he came to guide us, to know the starlight Christ light is within us all, my heart now illumined in star Christ light, is the gift and knowledge he came to share.
Stephen Rowlands 14/11/18
The Great Invocation: Connection To Soul Source
All things everything and everyone, is a reflection of soul source, the energy, light, being of creation, and intelligence the masses know as God, everything and everyone is connected by the soul source, as it is the divine plan to bring everything and everyone, into one ness with soul source, it is very important for those who follow a spiritual pathway, to have a inner one ness and connection with their own higher self, creating one ness with our soul source, as collectively the human race must attain, and ascend to one ness with soul source, but why do we look outside of ourselves to religion, for connection with our higher self, when higher self is within heart and mind, why do we see soul source as a separate entity to ourselves, when we are connected to soul source via heart and mind, to simplify connection through our own being.
It matters not whether we believe in a God or soul source or not, we have a choice everyday, on how we want to live our life purpose, yes I believe each and everyone of us has a life purpose, surely the greatest purpose of all is to love, to love friends and family, to help and comfort the sick and dying, to always work towards the greatest and highest good for ourselves, fellow humans and our world, Alice Bailey wrote The Great Invocation, a prayer to help soul source ( God ) find full expression here on earth, as we the human race are a expression of soul source, I feel strongly that it is our duty and purpose, to manifest and maintain full expression of soul source here on earth, I think we have got it all very wrong over the centuries, expecting everything to come from soul source, when we are the physical embodiment of soul source, together we can create a world of harmony, balance, love, kindness, compassion, tolerance, here on earth our connection to soul source is our higher selves.
Religion has been preaching the wrong message, I believe through misunderstanding the message from soul source, and myself realising that back in time, the teachings from soul source and the masters, were perceived as magically supernatural, the evolving church taught us to worship soul source, as a supernatural being full of magical miracles, when the simple truth is soul source ( God ) is within and all around us, and that we are naturally connected to soul source on a vibrational level, it has been very wrong of religion to teach, that the only way to soul source is through religion, creating wealth and power for religion.
There are many teachers teaching the one truth, with varying aspects of the one truth, that have been guides for the human race over the centuries, this can be very confusing to the many who seek the truth, but are put off by organised religion, much has been written about the higher self and how to connect with it, in this blog I aim to share with you my spirit guided teaching, on how to connect with our higher selves and soul source, the connection I speak of is not easy as we all have our emotional, physical, and material needs, which at times can be very selfish, our need for the bigger house or car, to get ahead of others to gain status, no matter the cost, to be loved, our hurts, anger, jelousies, bitterness, greed all very selfish emotions,and this is where our spiritual development comes in to let go off all our self serving, thoughts emotions and deeds whether be physical emotional, material, spiritual for the higher self is selfless and to reach it we must be selfless to, our higher selves is our purest form and connection with soul source, our higher self, is the divine energies of unconditional love kindness and compassion, and we can reach our higher being through selflessness love kindness and compassion all are great teachers, especially when we feel the world is against us.
This is the true spiritual development we all need to develop and grow within, on a individual level to achieve the full expression of soul source here on earth, to end war famine greed our inhumanity to each other, and all life that we share mother earth with, it is a personal spiritual development, that religion cannot accommodate because the church is not selfless in love thought and action, we must love selflessly to serve the greatest and highest good of all things, the truth comes in simplicity, religion has complicated the simple truth by putting itself between the human race and soul source, as we navigate the journey to our higher selves and connection to soul source, we cannot force another to take our pathway, we can only hope that they see the benefit of our way of life, and choose the pathway to the truth for themselves, there is much more that could be written but I simply say to the reader develop and grow in selfless thoughts and actions, of love kindness and compassion for ourselves and all things, let the masters be our guides so be it.
The Life And Times Of A Lost Soul :- Chapter 4 Healing Spirit As Above So Below
I am not really sure how to tell you this part of my spiritual journey, as it is not a talked about or researched subject, but is worthy of further investigation for our understanding of, the progression of our spirit after physical death, we always say a nasty, wicked, or evil person will go to hell, when they pass over into spirit, and a good person will go to heaven, and be surrounded by angels when they pass over to spirit, there is a lot of truth in this analogy, because our spirit is what we truly are, spirit guides have told me that we create our own heaven or hell in spirit, by our thoughts, emotions, and actions, here on the earth plane.
Our spirit is energy a consciousness that survives physical death, there are many levels of consciousness within the world of spirit, that we rise or fall to upon the event of our physical death, consciousness can only exist in a level that is vibrating at the same frequency as itself, like attracts like hence why there are many levels of spirit, within the human race there are many different levels of understanding, and this reflects through to the spirit world as above so below.
It is spirits that find themselves on a low level of spirit, that need healing to rise towards the light, and ascend to a higher level of spirit, they are at a low level for many reasons, mainly for dark emotions, thoughts, actions, and deeds on the earth plane, whereby they have selfishly put there own needs above others, or they feel they still have things to do here on the earth plane, to right wrongs or to gain forgiveness from someone living in the physical, or they have died suddenly at an accident or by the hand of another, and they still feel the pain and fear of there physical death, or they simply do not know they have physically died especially if sudden death or they had no knowledge or belief in a afterlife, or believe that there is nothing after physical life, we carry our emotions thoughts and deeds over to spirit as above so below, and they stay close to the earth plane vibrating at a dense physical level.
Spirit vibrating at a low level will come to us for help to help them raise their vibration, and to be guided towards the light there are also spirit guides, that work to help low level spirit to ascend to the light, rescue work circles here on the earth plane work along side spirit guides, and are devoted to helping low level spirit to ascend to the light and higher vibration, and this is where my story begins, back in 1978 when I first started to explore spiritualism, I was sitting for spiritual development and very open to spirit, I had 3 dreams over a period of a few months, each dream was set in a graveyard at night.
The first dream I was walking in a graveyard, and had a very strong sense that I must look for and find one particular grave, I did not know which grave but knew I had to find a grave, although in my dream it was night time, there was a light permeating through the darkness turning my surroundings, to a sort of dark blue and grey, I remember thinking in the dream what am I doing here, but I knew I really must find this grave, although I did not know why I must find the grave, eventually I came across this very large grave, with a stone plinth and a sculptured head of a man on it, with like three stone serrated rails over the grave meeting in the middle above the grave, I stood looking at the grave for awhile and then the eyes on the head opened, I woke up in the physical screaming and terrified.
The second dream was the same graveyard with me having. a very strong urge to find this grave, although with some trepidation as the last dream terrified me, I thought is this a lucid dream, as I know I am back in the same graveyard looking for a grave, that I know there is something evil about it, telling myself to be strong I pressed on, I found the grave the eyes on the head opened, it opened it’s mouth and a real deep loud drone come out of it’s mouth, everything seemed to vibrate I woke up terrified and screaming, although I was now conscious in my bed at home, I questioned my dream was it a lucid nightmare, could I have changed the dream and dreamt of something much more pleasant.
In the third dream I was joined by a boy and a girl, they were about my age late teens, they told me they were going to help me find the grave, this is very strange I thought why would they want to be here with me in my dream, they asked me what I would do when we found the grave, I said to them I do not know the grave terrifys me, it moves and talks I really do not know why I keep coming back here, we found the grave but it was in a different place, and was very different to how it had appeared before, it was close to the church and it was like a brick box with a gravestone laid on top, and on top of that was the stone head, surrounding the grave was an old black railing pointed with pointed rails, the girl asked me do you know who is buried here, I said I do not know but there must be a reason for me to keep coming back here, at that point the stone head turned round to face me, and in a deep mans voice spoke my name, once again I woke up screaming and terrified.
The question for me was why I had the three dreams, what was the purpose and reason for me having three dreams about a grave in a graveyard, and who were the young boy and girl, a few months went by and one evening, I was sitting in Berenice Watts development circle, for the meditation she asked us to walk down a Victorian street, I visualized a Victorian street and in my visualisation it was night time, I tried to visualise the Victorian street scene in daylight, but it kept going back to night, so I just stayed with night there were theatres to my left all lit up, and Victorian ladies and gentlemen dressed in there finery, walking up and down the street, it was a fun happy feeling of people out for entertainment and fun, across the road there was a graveyard, I immediately knew it was the graveyard in my three dreams.
Surrounding the graveyard were black pointed railings, there was a large gold building, all lit up with lights shining on it, inset into the outer wall was red square with gold trim, the people walking down the street seemed to be celebrating the fact the gold building was there, on the pavement outside the gold building stood a Victorian gentleman, with top hat a black beard wearing formal evening dress, he was staring right at me, I felt this is strange why is he staring at me I also felt glued to the spot, but also that me and the Victorian gentleman were all to do with this gold building and feeling of celebration, Berenice called us back into the room to interpret our meditations, I described my meditation to Berenice and told her about my three dreams, and that I strongly felt the gold building was the grave in the 3 dreams, Berenice explained to me that I had been used by spirit to help raise a spirit from the grave, because there are spirits who come into the physical earth vibration, and do not learn and grow whilst attached to the physical body, and lead a very negative life in the physical, when the physical body dies they cannot see a way out and stay attached to the physical body, she felt the Victorian gentleman was the spirit who was helped into the higher light vibration, the atmosphere of celebration was the Victorian gentleman, being welcomed into the higher realms of spirit, the gold building was the symbol of the spirit being raised from the grave. the teenage boy and girl in my dream were spirit helpers, sent to help me raise this spirit, myself in spirit form has a strong living physical earth vibration, and this was of use to spirit to help raise the spirit from the grave.
Think of my story what you will, it was all very real for me and at times very frightening, at the time of the three dreams I had not been taught to close down, and was being used by spirit to do rescue work, as was done with the Victorian gentleman, spiritualism and especially Berenice Watts gave me answers to questions, and helped me to understand and control what was happening to me, the one thing I learned from this, apart from spiritual protection is what we do in life, our thoughts emotions and actions echo in eternity as above so below.
Stephen Rowlands 23/08/18