I have often spoken about prayer describing prayer as thought, as a lot of people are put off prayer, by the religious connotations of prayer, I find prayer to be a useful tool in my daily life, to help me focus on what I need to do, in a religious sense prayer is our communication with the divine, we pray and a religion created God answers our prayers or not within our own perception, creation in one way or another, interacts with us in lessons to help us achieve what we are praying for, spirit guides have often taught that thought is the most powerful energy in the universe, so thinking about it the energy of our thoughts in prayer, are a real interaction with the lifeforce and energy of creation, that religion calls God.
Our light within communicates and interacts with the source light of creation, through our hearts and minds, how many times have we become at peace after prayer, this is a indication of our light interacting with source light, as we receive thoughts from the source of creation, we can gain guidance from source light, and help us to change our lives for the better, the spiritual journey here on earth, is very much a inner journey to develop light within us, by the lessons we receive from source light, to guide us on our spiritual journey here on earth, I feel inspired to write about my life and prayer at this point in time, to give an example of how our inner light, interacts and communicates with source light and wisdom.
I have been working as a security officer for the past 28 years, in varying roles in that time I have been shot at stabbed with a needle kicked and punched, and suffered various injuries from these assaults, for the past 3 months I have been working as a retail security officer, deterring shoplifters from stealing goods from a well known food retailer, the scene has changed very much from when I was a store detective 12 years ago, it used to be very cat and mouse with shoplifters doing there best to avoid detection, for fear of prosecution, today the police will not respond to shoplifting as it is deemed low level crime, due to government cuts to police and lack of resources, now shoplifters are openly stealing and being violent, if store security or shop staff try to stop or apprehend them, as their is now little or no chance of them being prosecuted and sentenced, my role is becoming more staff protection than being a deterrent to shop thieves.
I must admit at 58 years old this concerns me, as I am not as physically fit, and cannot be as physically aggressive as I used to be, in deterring and arresting shoplifters, for the past couple of weeks I have been working in a store, where assaults on staff are very much on the increase, my role is to visit a different store in that chain everyday, but due to assaults at this store on staff by shoplifters, the store has asked for a greater security presence there, on 21/11/18 I arrived at the store and I did not know why, but I felt I should pray and ask for protection for myself and the store that day, at 18.04 hrs a male and female entered the store, who I knew to be shoplifters, he is about 6′ 5″ tall and powerfully built, and in his mid twenties early thirties, the female is tall and skinny with obvious signs of drug abuse, I walked quickly to the meat section, as I knew they were going to go for the high value steaks, the male walked around to the next section, where the lamb and gammon joints were, the female stood about 5′ away from me pretending to browse the ham and burgers, I stood in front of the steak to protect it.
About 20 seconds later the male appeared with his open carrier bag, he said to me “keep out of the way mate this is nothing to do with you” and started to put steaks in his carrier bag, I started to take the steaks from him, telling him they are not his steaks and to leave the store, some pushing and shoving between us ensued, I was pushed back into the chiller but bounced back at him, he kept saying to me “do not touch me” I replied leave the steaks alone, this went on for about 45 – 60 seconds, in the struggle some steaks fell on the floor, and I stood on them to protect them from theft, myself and the male just looked at each other, it was a silent and eerie split second, he could see I was not going to retreat, then he and the female left the store, a manager who had witnessed the incident asked me if I was ok, I dialled 101 and reported the incident to police, also reporting it as a assault on myself as I was pushed into the chiller, knowing the police would give this incident more attention.
23/11/18 a police officer came to the store, to take a statement from me reference the assault on me and the theft of steak from the store, and to seize cctv evidence, the police officer told me that the male I wrestled with, was a nasty piece of work and was involved in a vicious assault on another man, which the man will take several months to recover from, my prayer for protection that day came back into my mind, realising I could have been seriously injured that day or worse, in that eerie split second in the incident, I believe spirit spoke to the male and he made the decision not to harm me and walk away, over giving me a good hiding to allow him to steal the steaks, I am so thankful and grateful to creation angels and spirit guides, for answering my prayer protecting me that day, and this is also my example of the power of prayer, and how our interaction through prayer with the source of creation works.
Stephen Rowlands 25/11/18
I sit down to pray in my dark room, visualising a white cross, to focus my love for healing, I find myself floating in the stars, looking down on mother earth, a jewel in the crown of creation, in awe of the starlight the realisation comes, I am floating in Christ light, it is still and silent the permanance of eternity, nothing can shatter this connection to all things, no ripples can disturb this divine space.
At one and conscious within Christ light, I must still my mind for the message to be heard, and understood in heart, he never came to free us from sin, he came to show us we are eternal, to look beyond ourselves to see our need for wealth status and power, are of little relevance in eternal life, he was not a saviour he came to guide us, to know the starlight Christ light is within us all, my heart now illumined in star Christ light, is the gift and knowledge he came to share.
Stephen Rowlands 14/11/18
All things everything and everyone, is a reflection of soul source, the energy, light, being of creation, and intelligence the masses know as God, everything and everyone is connected by the soul source, as it is the divine plan to bring everything and everyone, into one ness with soul source, it is very important for those who follow a spiritual pathway, to have a inner one ness and connection with their own higher self, creating one ness with our soul source, as collectively the human race must attain, and ascend to one ness with soul source, but why do we look outside of ourselves to religion, for connection with our higher self, when higher self is within heart and mind, why do we see soul source as a separate entity to ourselves, when we are connected to soul source via heart and mind, to simplify connection through our own being.
It matters not whether we believe in a God or soul source or not, we have a choice everyday, on how we want to live our life purpose, yes I believe each and everyone of us has a life purpose, surely the greatest purpose of all is to love, to love friends and family, to help and comfort the sick and dying, to always work towards the greatest and highest good for ourselves, fellow humans and our world, Alice Bailey wrote The Great Invocation, a prayer to help soul source ( God ) find full expression here on earth, as we the human race are a expression of soul source, I feel strongly that it is our duty and purpose, to manifest and maintain full expression of soul source here on earth, I think we have got it all very wrong over the centuries, expecting everything to come from soul source, when we are the physical embodiment of soul source, together we can create a world of harmony, balance, love, kindness, compassion, tolerance, here on earth our connection to soul source is our higher selves.
Religion has been preaching the wrong message, I believe through misunderstanding the message from soul source, and myself realising that back in time, the teachings from soul source and the masters, were perceived as magically supernatural, the evolving church taught us to worship soul source, as a supernatural being full of magical miracles, when the simple truth is soul source ( God ) is within and all around us, and that we are naturally connected to soul source on a vibrational level, it has been very wrong of religion to teach, that the only way to soul source is through religion, creating wealth and power for religion.
There are many teachers teaching the one truth, with varying aspects of the one truth, that have been guides for the human race over the centuries, this can be very confusing to the many who seek the truth, but are put off by organised religion, much has been written about the higher self and how to connect with it, in this blog I aim to share with you my spirit guided teaching, on how to connect with our higher selves and soul source, the connection I speak of is not easy as we all have our emotional, physical, and material needs, which at times can be very selfish, our need for the bigger house or car, to get ahead of others to gain status, no matter the cost, to be loved, our hurts, anger, jelousies, bitterness, greed all very selfish emotions,and this is where our spiritual development comes in to let go off all our self serving, thoughts emotions and deeds whether be physical emotional, material, spiritual for the higher self is selfless and to reach it we must be selfless to, our higher selves is our purest form and connection with soul source, our higher self, is the divine energies of unconditional love kindness and compassion, and we can reach our higher being through selflessness love kindness and compassion all are great teachers, especially when we feel the world is against us.
This is the true spiritual development we all need to develop and grow within, on a individual level to achieve the full expression of soul source here on earth, to end war famine greed our inhumanity to each other, and all life that we share mother earth with, it is a personal spiritual development, that religion cannot accommodate because the church is not selfless in love thought and action, we must love selflessly to serve the greatest and highest good of all things, the truth comes in simplicity, religion has complicated the simple truth by putting itself between the human race and soul source, as we navigate the journey to our higher selves and connection to soul source, we cannot force another to take our pathway, we can only hope that they see the benefit of our way of life, and choose the pathway to the truth for themselves, there is much more that could be written but I simply say to the reader develop and grow in selfless thoughts and actions, of love kindness and compassion for ourselves and all things, let the masters be our guides so be it.
Opening my heart to all that is draws me closer to spirit, I give thanks for the new day, conscious and alive the new day brings blessings in abundance, my mind becomes the open unwritten book, I am the creator within the magical genesis of creation, breeze blowing through the trees connects me to the energy of life, and love of all that is closer to spirit I am aware.
I offer myself in service to all that is, that I may always work towards the greatest and highest good for all, who seek to be closer to spirit, seeking the greatest and highest good from within myself, manifesting unconditional love my heart full to the brim, I walk with spirit a vocation, a calling, my reason for being closer to spirit.
There are a lot of people these days protesting, that spiritualism is not a religion, spiritualism in the UK had to become a religion, so that practitioners such as mediums and healers were not prosecuted, under the outdated witchcraft Act 1735, and to gain charitable status medium Helen Duncan was convicted under the witchcraft act, in September 1944 for claiming to conjure spirits, whilst I agree that spirit never speak of religion as there is no religion in spirit, and spirit do not speak of a god, they speak of divine light, no one can deny who has studied and communicated with spirit, the existence of a universal life and law, that spirit communicate to us here on earth as above so below.
The driving force of universal life is love, and it is love that spirit communicate to us here on earth, and the teachers that mankind built religion around all taught love, many who come into spiritualism in the UK, have come from a Christian background, and the cross in a spiritualist church gives resonance and focus to those from a religious background, who wish to learn more through spirit communication, how things work in the life hereafter and how to progress spiritually, and so enhancing there humanity, spirit guides teach that a church is a building a medium for them to communicate there truths, a group of like minded people meeting in a building, to commune the teachings of spirit is by definition a religion.
It depends on the energy of love and attunement to spirit within the building, that we and spirit can create together, the creation of love with spirit, depends on the level of attunement of the people within the building, hymns and prayers help us to gain greater attunement to spirit, taking us out of our material physical minds, to higher levels of attunement to spirit, yes all of this is religious ritual, but what is prayer but emotion and thought, spirit communicate to us in emotion and thought, and it is our attunement to love, that spirit need to communicate with us successfully.
Spiritualism has been crusading to prove the existence of eternal life, through spirit communication the facts of the communication proving eternal life, there is far greater communication with spirit, in the teachings spirit pass on to us, the teachings are of universal life and law, for we are spirit living learning and growing in a physical material world, to be a spiritualist is to live and walk with spirit on our earth plane, practising the teachings of spirit, and to be the true messengers of spirit, we must practice love, kindness, compassion, and forgiveness, in our thoughts words and deeds in service to spirit, there is a lot more to mediumship than giving messages, this is what being a spiritualist means to me.
Stephen Rowlands 26/08/18
I have found myself at a tipping point in life, I have always done what I have done for self survival, it is the name of the game in this material world of ours, earning enough money to live and survive in this physical life, throughout my working life I have always taken jobs with low pay and long hours just to survive, and have earned a good living at the expense of my quality of life, and spiritual pathway life as always teaches lessons, the realisation that life is teaching me a lesson became most apparent at my latest job interview.
I recently went for a job as a security officer at a local shopping centre, presenting the interviewer with a CV that holds 28 years of experience, in different roles within the security industry, a few of them employed in retail security in uniform and as a store detective, and shopping centre security, so I felt I was well placed for the job role I was applying for, the interview to my mind did not go well, as the interviewer treated me as if I had not done security work before, and as if I was inherently stupid, asking me questions on what he had just said.
Realising that he was assuming because of the job role I was applying for, that I must be of low intelligence offended me, the hourly rate was not that great even by security industry standards, with no double pay for working bank holidays, my interviewer tried to impress on me how wonderful it was, that my maybe future employer would provide me with a uniform, that I did not have to pay for is this what the security industry has become I thought, as my interviewer described the daily routine of a security officer at the shopping centre, asking had I done this or that before, to be honest and this may sound very arrogant but I felt over qualified for the job role I was being interviewed for, my CV was there before him holding more than enough of the experience required for the job role, and my interviewer was treating me as if I had just landed at Heathrow, got my security badge and was applying for my first security job.
I left the interview very angry with the interviewer, because of the way I was treated, I felt that with my CV and experience that I should have been treated with more respect, also realising that he was rigidly sticking to the interview formula, set down by the company he works for, which is ok for people just coming into the security industry, but not for old campaigners like myself with 28 years of experience, having said all this the working hours for the job, would really fit in with my spiritual work and development, my interview experience got me thinking, do I really need to do this kind of work, and be treated like a slave amoeba.
The question keeps running through my mind, why do I keep running to these kind of jobs just to survive, surely just surviving is not quality of life, and is really not progressing towards my purpose in life, I now know that my purpose in life is to serve spirit, as a healer and medium, writer and poet, but alas my purpose does not pay the bills, my tipping point has given me a choice to either, do what I have always done to survive, or to focus on serving spirit full time, doing readings and demonstrations, giving spiritual guidance, the universe is saying to me the choice is yours, and it is a very scary choice to make as I have not the finances to support me, whilst I focus on and grow a spiritual business, as can be done in the new and evolving spiritual industry, but what can I do in the meantime, the answer is very clear, I must work in the material world to keep the roof over my head.
I am also grateful for the massive learning curve that I am now on, regret is no longer useful to me, thinking what if I had not left the spiritual pathway, there is a bigger realisation here, why did I never believe in myself, or realise my own self worth, but I cannot dwell on my lack of self belief or worth, in the past what matters is now, and what I do with lessons learned, the one thing I did learn from the interview is that I am worth more, the beauty of life is that we can manifest change from within at any point in our lives, and it is the inner change of self belief and worth that I now seek, and focussing on for the future, I have been used by spirit in the past, to help people love and believe in themselves, now once again it is time for me to practice what I preach.
Life is an open book and we all write in it’s pages, it is very important not to regret past mistakes, if we had taken a different road all this does is weigh us down, and hold us back from inner new beginnings and new life, I am told by others that I am talented, so time to focus on those talents and develop them as often as possible, and no more doing myself down with dead end jobs, with no chance of progression just to survive, I am also 58 years old so seeking out a career is pointless at my time of life, although I have had opportunities in the past to create a career, but dwelling on the past as I said is pointless, it is very important in life to work with what we have in life, rather than yearning for what we have not, we can do nothing with what we do not have, much better to focus on what we can become with what we have, I have mind and a reasonably healthy body, I have life, purpose, and love, I have talents to develop, thankyou job interview for making me realise life and future service needs me to be so much more.
But the lessons still needed to be learned, as I was still teetering on my tipping point, the point being how to balance my material and spiritual, and earn enough money to live on my finances are running low, I was worried about being able to meet my financial commitments, 31/07/18 I had a second interview for a supermarket home delivery service, which meant going on a delivery run with the supervisor, delivering shopping to peoples doors and a driving assessment, the supervisor is a friendly chap we got on well and the interview went well, I had passed all assessments, the supervisor told me he had other interviews, and let me know the following Monday 06/08/18 if I had been successful or not, but the hourly rate was not good, and the hours offered meant I would not earn enough to make a living, so I would have to turn down the job if offered it, I got the call but was unsuccessful in my application, as my customer service skills were not as strong as other candidates.
All of this with my financial worries made me feel very low, but I had to pull myself together, as I was doing a demonstration of mediumship, at The Divine Spark Centre in Bredhurst Kent, 01/08/18 my girlfriend Veronica drove me to the centre, as my car has a water leak, The Centre is run by my best friend Marina Rawlings and her colleague Mandy Lafferty, I wanted to have a good strong connection to spirit that evening, as I was honoured to be serving my best friends centre, reminding myself that it is my purpose in life, to serve spirit as a healer and medium, as I sat there alone waiting for the demonstration to start, rising above my worries and woes to raise my vibration, to be able to communicate with spirit, I got a strong image within my minds eye, of the face of an elderly man with rugged weather beaten features, white/grey hair brushed back balding on top long white/grey side burns, with a determined look on his face, there had been a lot of talk of spiritual activity at the centre, so I thought this spirit is just passing through but he remained with me.
I started the demonstration and it was going well with a strong connection to spirit, in the audience there was a young friend of Marina’s, who Marina had told me before the demonstration that her friends mother was very ill, I was very drawn to this young lady, and she had a very strong native American guide who wished to speak to her, but I was holding back as I did not want what I already knew, to stain the link with the spirit guide, nor did I want to blurt out publicly anything the spirit guide wished to say about her mother, as I strongly felt that this would be to private for the young lady to share publicly, the native American spirit guide gave me symbolic images, of what life was like for the young lady I interpreted the images for her, and she was accepting the message, but I did feel a bit of a fraud as I had prior knowledge of this young ladies life. then the old weather beaten man who I saw before the demonstration, popped up in my minds eye, he told me he was the young ladies grandfather, I told the young lady I had her grandfather on her fathers side of the family with her, I felt strongly he was an outdoor man and worked in the construction industry, as he was showing me a cement mixer, he was also impressing on me the dark green cardigan he always used to wear, I described him to her she smiled I could see him lent over her as she sat there, with his hands on her shoulders, her grandfather passed on a message of love to her, via me that he was there to support her and the rest of her family through this difficult time.
After the demonstration the young lady came to me, she was delighted with her message from her grandfather, she told me my description of him was spot on, that he was an outdoor man and worked in the construction industry, and her grandad was always there to support and comfort family in troubled times, and that her and her father were dealing with her mothers illness, alone as other family had seemed to step back from them, but she was very happy that her grandad had communicated, and proved to her that he was still with them and supporting them, she also told me her father was a non believer in life after death, but she would tell him of her message from her grandad.
Myself and the lovely Marina Rawlings at The Divine Spark Centre 01/08/18
My link with spirit and the whole demonstration, especially the message to the young lady from her grandad, had given me the inner upliftment that I needed at that time, and reminded me of how very blessed I am to be a channel for spirit, I decided not to allow myself to get low about my present predicament, and felt a bit daft as I am a great believer in the power of positive thinking, and how the power of thought can bring to us what we want or need in life, the next day 02/08/18 I said to Veronica something wonderful is going to happen today, it is a magical day and I live a magical and abundant life, Veronica looked at me as if I had jumped out of a Jamboree bag, but my thoughts and intentions were set.
We had breakfast and I went online to seek work and apply for jobs, I applied for a couple of security jobs that I had applied for previously, but hey ho I thought no harm in applying again, around 11 am I got a phone call from a security recruitment company, he said you sent me your cv this morning, you have a strong security background, I have two jobs in mind for you can I discuss them with you, I said yes certainly, both jobs were for a leading national security company, both jobs 4 on 4 off on a rolling basis, one a night mobile driver locking and unlocking sites and doing site patrols, the other was still mobile but driving to a well known store in various locations, spending a couple of hours in each of them providing a security presence and deterrent to store thieves, I told the caller I had experience in both roles, although he advised me I could only apply for one of the jobs, so I picked the night mobile job, he asked if he could send my cv to the company I agreed he could, and asked if I would be available next day for interview at 11 am, I told him I would be available.
Around 30 minutes later the recruitment consultant called me back, saying the security company wanted to see me for interview the next day, I accepted the offer of an interview and agreed to attend the interview, my day had turned around just by positive thinking and setting sincere intentions, I was jumping for joy as I told Veronica of my good fortune, I was very uplifted but the job had not been won yet, and I was hoping that my interviewer was old school security like myself, and not like the chrome new boy who interviewed me at the shopping centre.
I realised that the time and date of the interview was very powerful, spiritually and universally, three being the most powerful number in the universe, and eleven being a angel number, for letting go of the past and focussing on and working towards our goals, so on 03/08/18 at 11 am I attended the security company for interview, my interviewer a friendly no nonsense sort of guy, told me about the job we talked about my relevant experience for the job, he told me he has been working in the security industry nearly as long as I have, the look on his face told me he knew he couldn’t, give me any of the new corperate security industry bullshit I had experienced in previous interviews, he said look I am going to offer you a job, I have three jobs I want to talk you about, but you can only pick one, mobile relief, mobile retail days, mobile nights, I picked the mobile retail job as it was days, it would be a better work life balance for my relationship with Veronica, he took my uniform sizes and my bank details for wages, I am just waiting for vetting to go through and I can start work, and I am very much looking forward to my new role, as I will be able to earn enough money to live on, and have time to focus on and progress with my spiritual, all came right in the end with positive thinking and focus on my goals, although I did not want to work in the security industry anymore, I know this job and it fits in with the life I wish to lead.
During the past two weeks the universe has been sending me a very strong message, in quotes that I have read and movies that I have watched several times a day, telling me to practice what I preach, to believe in myself and focus and work hard towards my goals, I know this is not easy, when we feel low about ourselves and our future prospects, I have learned this past two weeks, to rise above my woes and focus on my goals, as I do when I communicate with spirit, our doubts about ourselves and our prospects become a real burden, stopping us from focussing on our goals or what we need to achieve daily, by rising above our doubts believing that everyday is wonderful and magical, using that energy to focus on and work towards our material/spiritual goals, and knowing that every setback is there to teach us something, and guide us to our greatest and highest good, so lets not be down about our setbacks learn from them, and use them as a springboard for the future, I am grateful for the lesson and finally practising what I am preaching.
Stephen Rowlands 08/08/18
A regular visitor to Berenice’s development circle was a oriental spirit guide named Li, who would communicate teaching in trance via his channel Ian Watts, one evening he was speaking to us of the importance, of an open mind in spiritual development, as he said one lesson leads to another lesson until we reach the greater whole of the lesson, anything that appears to be unbelievable to us or just plain silly, we should not discard as something may come along later that will make sense, of what we first thought of as unbelievable or stupid.
I was asked to do a private trance demo for a couple of people, who are enquiring into the truth of spirit communication, I was told that one of them is very sceptical about spirit communication, my reply was as long as myself and spirit were not mocked during the demonstration, and they both follow the rules of trance communication, and that they both keep an open mind, I would agree to channel spirit for them in trance, my reply got me thinking of spirit guide Li’s teaching way back in 1979, to me scepticism is ignorance because many who are sceptical of spirit communication, have not actually explored the truth of spirit communication, and dismiss the very notion of spirit communication as soon as it is mentioned.
Place yourself for one moment in my shoes, I like many people have been aware of spirit all my life, I work an everyday job to provide for myself in a material world, living and working with spirit is the norm for me and many others, to be ridiculed for what I know to be the truth is at times very hurtful, so please accept that myself and people like me are living our truth, I accept that there are people who have visited a medium or church service, and not got the required result but please keep enquiring the truth will come, I myself have been involved in spiritualism since 1978, and demonstrating mediumship on platform in spiritualist churches since 1983, in all that time I have received 3 pure evidential messages from my loved ones in spirit, from other mediums and yet I have given hundreds of messages to others, from spirit yet my knowledge of life everlasting and spirit communication, is as solid and true as it has always been, please ponder that simple truth for one moment.
Many people who sit for spiritual development, are focussed on becoming mediums, because it is more the glam side of what we who serve spirit do, but there are many ways of serving spirit, my spirit guides keep reminding me that I am a healer, and encourage me more and more to be a channel for healing, which I do when the opportunity arises, or send out absent healing for those in need and for our world, I feel very strongly to say that in whatever way we serve spirit, it is all about healing and bringing upliftment ,in one form or another to whoever needs it, so for all those who are sitting for spiritual development, please be mindful of where your spirit guides are taking you on your journey, and follow that path for they see the bigger picture, please do not waste time and energy trying to develop something that is not meant for you, if you follow the path of spirit guidance in future service, you will be fulfilling your purpose here on this earth plane, I myself must be mindful of where spirit guidance is leading me to learn and serve, as I wish to fulfill my purpose in life.
An open mind is not only important for spiritual development, to learn how to communicate with spirit and channel spirit teaching and energy, but is very important in life, as with spiritual development in life we are developing ourselves, to become better versions of ourselves, by this I am not talking of material wealth, I am talking of leading the best life we possibly can by living our truth, we on this earth plane are way to conditioned into being worker ants, for the corperations and banks, this is the norm we are conditioned to get married reproduce buy a house and one day pass away, this is the material norm how often have I heard people say, I wish I could do this or that, but I cannot because I have to pay for this or that, there is a bigger picture in life, and life has so many possibilities and infinite equations, to life please never say never, live and be the life you want to live in the best possible way, your open mind will guide you beyond your dreams.
Stephen Rowlands 08/07/18